I have been MIA for a bit, my mother had a mini stroke and can bearly understand her. And other symptoms as well, so it has been a bit tough going lately and not too much time for myself.
So just want to say hello and have not abandon my thread nor have I relapsed. Had a couple of chances too but looked at the pills in my hand (very dumb to put them in my hands BTW) and just looked at them and felt misery coming out of them, if that makes any sense. Also too I can't be going thru major withdrawals and take care of my mom. Its just not happening.and did I mention I am going thru PMS? Well I am and its during this time period that relapsing is the closest. So I am super aware of this, and if I have to be grumpy for now, though I try not to be, but if I am then its better than picking up more Lopes or Percs or OxyZ or take more Benzos than I should be taking. Just gotta learn to suck it up for a few days, till it passes. I think its called growing up . Delayed gratification is what grown ups do. Even though I am in my 40's I still feel like a rebellious teenager sometimes. That is called addict behaviour, I believe LOL.
Any-who, gotta get a bit of sleep, and Doggie, for sure take the time you need to stabalize and sit there for a bit. Your body needs some rest after all the hell you went through! If we are honest with our selves we will take the next right step. And so glad to see you are still posting here!
Be good to yourself eh?!
Addicted to Loperamide-New Year, New Start, New Motivation and support is key - Part 69