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Being Sober Fucking Sucks

  1. I'm going to go to my first N/A meeting tomorrow, so I guess I'll update about that.

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  1. Hopeless78
    I haven't seen any of your older threads, but I am so sorry to hear about your mom thornb. I can't begin to imagine the pain that you are feeling. I am also an Oxy addict. I was addicted for a few years, first got clean for a little over two months, started feeling better SLOWLY and then relapsed because of boredom, emptiness and basically all the shitty stuff that you are describing.

    I am getting clean again next week, for good this time I hope. I wish I didn't make the stupid mistake of relapsing, because now I am back at square one.

    I know it probably feels hopeless to you right now, but trust me when I say, all the shitty things you are feeling right now, are still BETTER then being back where I am at. Keep fighting, and it will eventually get better. I wish I waited long enough to feel better, but I didn't. This time I will though.

    I think the biggest thing is finding ways to occupy your time so that you are not so fucking bored all the time - that was one of my main problems before. Boredom and emptiness.
    But girl, you are not alone in feeling the way you are feeling. I know exactly the feeling of shittiness that sobriety can be. You haven't mentioned how long you used for or youe dosage? Also, do you have any kind of support, or is your boyfriend the only one you can turn to? Counselling would be really good so you can deal with the grief of losing your mom.

    Shoot me a message anytime you want to chat - I have been pretty fucking depressed lately, even though I am currently using. Oxys only help for a brief moment, and are so not worth it.

    Good luck, keep going, it will get easier. It has to