Detoxin momma:things are changing for me. - Part 35

By detoxin momma · Oct 12, 2014 · ·
  1. thanks for sharing that freckles.

    no matter how down I do get I believe once this little baby girl is in my arms all these feelings of resentment will go away.
    like everything will be put into I wont be pregnant anymore so hopefully the person I know will return.because I feel like I don't even know myself lately.

    also,i was on tramadol for 4 and a half years,and only been clean from that a short while.
    so I also wonder how much that is coming into play here.

    but anyways,i feel more optimistic than I did yesterday.
    and I guess its common knowledge that pregnant womens moods are out of control for a reason.
    because I feel all over the place lately.
    like I cover every range of emotion in a day.
    and its getting old,and exhausting.

    thanks for the reassurance freckles.


  1. Beenthere2Hippie
    Hi Sweetie-

    Sorry I haven't responded sooner, but just lost my dear cat Alex (11.8 years with him) this past Wednesday and have been a ball of tears and hurt ever since. I know you understand about losing a dear pet.

    Freckles is a wise and loving member who has given you wonderful advice and insight into the fact that what you're going through and feeling right now are not at all out of line. I'm so happy she came forward to share, but knowing her it's not surprising.

    I did want to add to what you said on your last post as to the huge change in hormones that pregnancy involves, causing even the strongest little trooper such as yourself to feel way, way out of sorts, some, if not most of the time. Add to that the stress of working and motherhood; your recent injury, and your (as we all have) hidden little resentments for the freedom in marriage traditional men have over woman and probably always will, since we're the ones who mothering and birthing chores come down to, no matter what modern society says about it. Period.

    Please let us know how you're doing, no matter whether it's good or bad. You're a great journaler and living proof that no matter how low we get, we can find reason to hold on.

    Sending love & hugs as always,

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