i was right about the flexeril,it definatly has been keeping things more relaxed for me and her.
i didnt take any last night,and boy did i regret it.didnt sleep at all.
contractions every other hour all night long.
i moaned and groaned and tossed and turned,got up every other hour trying to walk off the contractions.and was able to.for that hour anyway.
in the past i would've went to the hospital by now.
but im older and wiser now,
and have the internet access to look up every little thing of course.
my doctor told me when i have contractions to look at the time,and see if they come every 5 minutes after,for an hour straight.
i have had contractions that came every 5 minutes more than one day,but once i start thinking,"ok thats every 5 minutes"
its only happening for a half hour.because by that point im up moving around trying to see if they stop when i change positions,like i was told to do,and they do.
so im not going to the hospital until its been a full hour of contractions,or that dont stop when i get up and do something,like sweep the floor or stick some dishes in the dishwasher.
i've gotten very obsessive over every little bit of clutter lately.
can't be a single piece of clothes in the dirty laundry,can't be a single dish in the sink.
i have this thought process that i could be leaving in labor at any moment and i want the house in tip top shape so it will lessen my chances of coming home to a mess!
i even jumped the kids shit when they got off the bus yesterday.
they always come in dropping back packs wherever,kicking shoes off in the middle of the living room,coats strung on the dining room table,making snacks and laving everything out in the kitchen...
yesterday i told them"no way!put all that crap where it goes,now! if i have to leave i do not want to come home to your crap everywhere!"
their old enough to handle that stuff.
i've been quite the enabler up to this point.
i still make sure my daughters hair is washed to my standards at every shower!even brush it myself,because of course she didnt do a good enough job!
i still pick out their clothes everynight!
i still put their food on their plates!
i even bring them their shoes to put on,every morning!and hand them their coats as they walk out the door.
thats crazy,their 9&11.
ive really been regretting these things lately.having a baby about to come is making me realize how spoiled ive got them.and im scared!
i shoulda started weaning them off the tit a long time ago.
i dont know how mornings are gonna go now.
will baby be awake?will we wake her with all the commotion?
will baby and i already be awake when its time to get them ready?
i dont know.
and im nervous.its alot to handle.
trying to keep everyone happy with so much going on is going to be really tough.
but,people do it,its not just me.this is what mothers do.and i hope i handle it all still with a smile on my face.
anyways,definatly taking the flexeril tonite.don't want another night like last night,no way.
plus when i truely do go into labor i need to be rested,not exhausted from no sleep.
i'll be getting plenty of no sleep nights once she comes,so i better get all the rest i can now.guess thats why i've been put on it in the first place.
still taking a fraction of what im prescribed though,of the tramadol to.
a third to be exact i figure,littleless even.
flexerils supposed to be 10mgs 3x's a day, but im taking a half a pill,so 5 mg's at bedtime.
thats less than a third im prescribed.and its strong enough i get fine sleep on just that amount.don't want to be all zombified.
the tramadols supposed to be 50 mgs every 4 hours..but im still just taking 50 mgs in the morning,and another half,so 25 mgs in the afternoon.
and thats plenty,its helping in the back pain department just fine.not getting the energy i used to but thats ok.
freckles pointed out my weight change,and im sure she nailed it.if i took a whole 50 mgs every 4 hours i probably would get some pep.
but im scared to try.
i always have this thought process when it comes to taking pills,that i may get a reaction i don't like,so if i've taken just half of it i won't have to feel that way long.
no matter what it is,vicodin,percocet,oxy,doesnt matter.i always take a half.always have this fear that it may hit me to strongly.
probably not a bad thing i think that way.plus it keeps my tolerance in check.
anyways,my husband is really getting on my nerves lately.and the sad thing is he doesnt even have to do anything!
hearing him snore at night is really annoying right now.
then to get up and say he's tired!
gimme a break.
i wish he could live just one day in my shoes right now.a full 24 hours in my body,in this condition.
then tell me how tired and beat you are.
he has no idea what tired is.