Hi JD & Werecat,
I wrote a long post yesterday and lost it. The whole day was pretty much sucky, so that was the icing on the cake.
Withdrawals are going Ok, as good as withdrawals go, I guess. I woke up at 5:30 am with mild withdrawals and took some Loperamide and amused myself on match.com as I waited for it to kick in. It's just barely beginning to work and I am feeling much better. Loperamide does work, although I think it's just putting off the inevitable. Tapering is definitely for me, though.
My stupid car (which isn't that old) decided to quit working Monday night, right when I needed it most, ugh!! I think the starter has gone out, and I had to borrow my ex's car to go to the interviews at the college. He leaves for work at 4:45 am, so I asked a friend to drive me to pick up my ex's car later in the morning. My friend ended up being late so I barely made the interview.
The interview went OK. The lady I interviewed with was the one that took over for me when I walked out on 7 classes. She was telling me that after 3 weeks of her teaching that many of the students left.......that was a tad awkward!! She seems the type that teaches down to people, and gave off a very 'us (teachers, better than)' vs 'them (students, idiots without any prospects) philosophy. A philosophy I do not ever ascribe to. No wonder students left. She seems to 'dumb down' content for them, which is something I will never, ever do. They are paying me to give a university level education, and I will give that irregardless of whether it's a community college or Harvard.
Anyway, we chatted for about an hour. She said her program enrollment is down (no surprise there), and that she only has 6-8 people per class. They have really lost most of the program, which doesn't surprise me. I will be surprised if she gives me any classes this next semester, although she did want to develop a class around me (hu???), thought I would enrich the program, and wanted to have me guess teach to see my teaching skills (she could just read the student evals when I taught there).
Anyway, I am not sure if we are a good fit. I don't do well with the status quo, and if I was back there I would want to grow the program. I need a college that is a little more aggressive in wanting accreditations, program growth, etc. I think she likes a small enrolment that only she teaches, as it ensures her job security. If adjunct are better qualified and more successful they may take her job, especially if students liked them, and were treated as adults.
I would take a class if it was offered, but I think I am going to focus elsewhere. There was a reason I walked out, and I think that reason still exists. I am glad I took the time to find out, and it wasn't nearly as scary as I had made it out to be in my mind. Funny how we do that and stop ourselves living full and exciting lives.....
I applied for my MFA in Illustration (Masters in Fine Arts) It is a terminal degree, meaning it's the highest I can go, there is no doctorate level studio art degree. This will enable me to teach anywhere I want, as well as vastly improve my artistic creativity. I am very much looking forward to it and will start Jan 26. It will take me about 3.5 years at about 18 credits a year. Its 60 credit hours, about 20 more than a MA (Master of Arts), which is why it's a higher degree then an MA.
I had to get my car towed, which was unbelievably frustrating, and I am without a car. (The tow truck driver wanted me to facebook friend him, though...???) I think I am looking at a very expensive repair which I am not looking forward to. It's very bad timing, but I need a car.
Well, that's it, I guess. I have been pretty busy which has actually been fun! I like that. Life can be very good when we decide to take control of it. I think we give up far to much control of it to other people, anyway, I know I do.
Hang in there guys, we will get through this .
lostlygirl added 55 Minutes and 53 Seconds later...
I am really having bad cravings today. I am glad I don't have any fentanyl around or it would all be downhill. I woke up just wanting the stuff. Its going to be a long day...