DAY SIX. For some reason yesterday was the hardest day so far. I slept 9 hours on the 4th night which is a miracle, but woke up very foggy headed and just couldn't get moving. Withdrawals seem to set in and just not budge. I took my first 3 doses of 5 Loperamide pills (15 pills total) by 1:30 pm and it wasn't looking like a great day. The 15 pills barely held off the worst symptoms and my brain was mush, which was the complete opposite to the last few days. I just couldn't think. I managed to hold off on the last does of Loperamide until bedtime so I met my goal of only 20 pills. It was tough, though. I think the first few days of excessively high Loperamide had worn off and that I was feeling the drop finally. I came down with a monster headache that just wouldn't go away. If I had any fentanyl I definitely would have used it, and completely would have justified it. Ugh. This just sucks big time.
To make matters worse my kids were out of school for Veterans Day and my 15 yr old daughter had an orthodontist appointment. It had snowed quite heavily the night before. After a few miles I realized the roads were too bad and was heading home when a car came barreling towards us. It barely missed us and I let out a string of profanity a sailor would be proud of. My daughter just looked at me with a look that says "Who are you and what have you done with my mother???" My vocabulary has turned quite profound since starting withdrawals.
Its the beginning of day six. I didn't sleep well last night, although I did sleep on and off. I woke up with a pounding headache and feeling extremely restless. I just took my first dose of Loperamide and am waiting for it to kick in. It always takes a good 2-3 hours to take effect. My plan is to skip my noon dose and keep it at 15 for today. I am going to push back my noon dose to around 3 pm, and then take another right before bed. Oh... And I can't stop yawning. It's really annoying. I hate all of this.