You are absolutely right, on all of it. I will order the kratom tonight. Can you pm me a reputable website (if that's not breaking the rules) and what type and how much to order? I have no experience at all regarding Kratom.
I am only taking enough Loperamide to keep withdrawals at a tolerable amount. I think I am getting tired. I think I was on a scary shit high dose of fentanyl as I had read somewhere that sucking on the patch can give you up to 30 times the dose. I would cut the 50's in half and suck on 25 mcg/hr, so I could have been as high as 7,500 mcg/hr, if that's even possible. Is it? (I had the type where the fentanyl was in the adhesive, so it wasn't a jell that could spill out.)
You are right, if I get another script of fentanyl the chances I will abuse it are extremely high. Also, I want my life back. I am so so so sick of always feeling like crap.
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I just got your note on the warm wind, thank you, my lovely friend, thank you