Alright, day, almost a month. Hard to believe; time flies. But I’m still upset with myself.
Today, I met with the doctor and told him I wanted to taper off of buprenorphine; I’m doing it! Hopefully going to complete the tapering process in 2 weeks, because I’m at such a low dose, but I’ll stretch it out if necessary.
I’ve been having a lot of partial seizures recently, and it’s been taking a toll on me, both mentally and emotionally. I missed cannabis so much. Because of my decision to taper, I also decided to use my medical cannabis again... and my god, it helps me so much. Anxiety, depression, hating other people....... all of that has diminished significantly, in one hit.
It feels wonderful to use something that reduces me seizure activity, helps with my anxiety, and overall makes my depression easier to manage. I certainly understand that it can be harmful for some, but for me, cannabis only heals.
Feeling good. Don’t have a weekend off, because I have to volunteer and participate in class related activities; but I’m feeling good. Hoping to get off suboxone in two weeks, and that when I’ve completed the taper (after some time), I’ll feel like myself again.