DOPE-FREE: Day 25

By rj95 · Apr 6, 2019 · ·
  1. Alright, day, almost a month. Hard to believe; time flies. But I’m still upset with myself.

    Today, I met with the doctor and told him I wanted to taper off of buprenorphine; I’m doing it! Hopefully going to complete the tapering process in 2 weeks, because I’m at such a low dose, but I’ll stretch it out if necessary.

    I’ve been having a lot of partial seizures recently, and it’s been taking a toll on me, both mentally and emotionally. I missed cannabis so much. Because of my decision to taper, I also decided to use my medical cannabis again... and my god, it helps me so much. Anxiety, depression, hating other people....... all of that has diminished significantly, in one hit.

    It feels wonderful to use something that reduces me seizure activity, helps with my anxiety, and overall makes my depression easier to manage. I certainly understand that it can be harmful for some, but for me, cannabis only heals.

    Feeling good. Don’t have a weekend off, because I have to volunteer and participate in class related activities; but I’m feeling good. Hoping to get off suboxone in two weeks, and that when I’ve completed the taper (after some time), I’ll feel like myself again.

Comments

  1. Hopeless78
    Congrats on almost a month girl - I had a hardcore addiction to oxycodone for about 5 years and have been off pills for about a year now, and on and off suboxone for about a year. Have been off all opioids and opiates including subs for a month and a half now. It’s a tough journey. Just wanted to offer some support as I know what you’re going through. It’s taken me a long time to get where I am at now, I know how difficult it is. A month is no joke — things will get better. This last suboxone withdrawal I had was the worst thing I’ve experienced, but I’ve been on it for a lot longer then you. I had to go on antidepressants as I had a massive breakdown in the beginning of March, but they helped tremendously. I feel so much better these days, probably the best I’ve felt in a very long time. Just remember it will get better. We’re all here for you x.
  2. BirdJungle
    Congratulations and good luck with your tapering schedule! I hope it goes smoothly for you.

    It’s good that you’re in school and volunteering! I think it’s important to stay productive and to do things you feel good about to improve your mood and general outlook on life.
  3. angelraysmehigher
    Congratulations on your achievements so far, well done!
    Brought a smile to my face reading your entry, especially the end paragraph.

    I think it's wonderful you're volunteering, I find nothing more rewarding than giving my time and spare hands to another or others in need of the help!

    You should be very proud of your efforts and milestones achieved over these 25 days. I'm happy for you, thank you for being an inspiration to many others on the forums.

    Goodluck with your tapering schedule, looking forward to hearing how things go.

    Love and support from Down Under x.
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