DOPE FREE: DAY 4, take 2

By rj95 · Mar 14, 2019 · ·
  1. Alright. I’ve got 3 days. Still no suboxone. Hoping to get some help from a different clinic this morning. Everything will be ok. I can do this. Gotta stay strong. Time to go to the south side of the city to get some help. Hope someone will help me. This country’s health care system is fucked. Opioid and heroin epidemic... how about we make treatment AVAILABLE TO EVERYONE WHO NEEDS IT? I have HEALTH INSURANCE AND CANT FIND A FUCKING SUB DOCTOR?

    The psychiatrist at my treatment center refused to prescribe me suboxone yesterday. The reason? Cannabis. SO, because I use CBD OIL WITH LOW THC to help my SEIZURE CONDITION (in addition to an anti-convulsant drug), she won’t prescribe something to me which will keep me off the dope... ok, lady. Do these people want me to die?

    Fuck this country, and fuck the hatred towards cannabis. It’s one of the few things helping me right now, when I have nothing else to help me get through this hell of withdrawal. It helps my restlessness. It helps me sleep at least a few hours. It helps me eat, even though I feel sick... What’s so bad about that?

    I truly hope that our country gets its SHIT TOGETHER and STOPS FUCKING COMPARING CANNABIS TO DRUGS LIKE HEROIN. CANNABIS IS FUCKING NOTHING LIKE HEROIN. ITS NO WHERE NEAR AS DESTRUCTIVE AS ALCOHOL, either... ok. Rant over. Hah.

    I keep looking at my arms and thinking about what relief a good shot would bring me... but what else would that bring? More shame? Self-hatred? Make this dope sick game even worse? Fuck that.

    I don’t pray. I don’t have a god. But I pray to fucking god that I can get some suboxone maintenance treatment, and soon.
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Comments

  1. titaniumhunter
    You've gone 3 days without suboxone..YOU did this. You are excellent.So fuck 'em....do it,despite no sub, despite those who are supposed to help you and don't,despite the rampant stupidity. Crawl in a corner and die for a while....just don't go back, never go back,you don't want to go back...and one day this will be over, for good, because of YOU,RJ, because of excellent you.
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  2. jazzyj9
    There’s a drug called tianeptine that @I_beat_heroin used. Instead of suboxone. Maybe they can advise you. Research it carefully thought.
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  3. PastorFuzz
    Howzitgoin!
    What titaniumhunter said bout says it all for me. You're awesome! You're a fuckin warrior! You don't let no fuckin lab coat piss in your rice krispies!

    Keep on keepin on, lil friend! We're in your corner!
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