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  1. I keep thinking that if I just try that nasty shit again, it will be better. That I might get a good piece or something. I know this is not rational. I just can't bring myself to throw it out. Why? Why? I'm tired today. But I have to get through this, I know I can. I've done it before and I know I can do it again.

    I just got a call about a job that kind of fell in into my lap, and I got the job! I start in two weeks. I'm so excited. So this is my motivation to get and stay clean. It really is my dream job.


  1. aemetha
    Throw it out. If it's there you'll relapse before you know you've done it. At least if it's not right there you have time to convince yourself not to. Commit to your decision.
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  2. Lou2011
    I know exactly how you feel ! The tiredness its so frustrating I hate having no focus and not being alert ! I watched a documentary last night on russell brand about addiction if you have net flix might be worth a watch ... Best of luck in your new job x
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  3. DarkSinisterFemme
    Our dopamine gets so low when we use for longer than 3 or 4 days, after tht its like chasing the high when you cant get any higher cause of dopamine is depleted. You can always put in freezer if you wnt to save it, sometimes knowing its there keeps me from using it. I know tht sounds weird, but it has helped me not use it. I quit for a mn or few wks to get my brain and body back in order, then I have it when I'm ready. Good luck with your new job !!
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