Ghost From the Past

  1. I know you can hear me I'm calling your name,
    It's your younger self, so hurt by the shame.
    I'm here cause you're hurting more than just you,
    But me and your unbeknownst family too.

    You might have gone and hidden away,
    Tired from battling demons all day.
    In silence you suffer no-one else knows,
    Except those reading your cyber flows.

    Your calls he heard them that Big Bad Wolf,
    He warned and pleaded; don't let it engulf.
    Those words they stung and hit to the core,
    That a stranger so kind and caring much more.

    Than you've ever shown yourself or your mind,
    Time to wake up, your destiny to find.
    Life is meant to be more than this,
    Nothing worth throwing for a devil's kiss.

    One day this will end and victory all yours,
    Fight through the waves to reach distant shores.
    The seas are stormy I can't promise it's easy,
    At times you'll struggle, feeling scat and queasy.

    Just think back on those times and how shit you felt,
    When back to old ways making crystal melt.
    You know these days it's no fun no more,
    Too weak and sick his hits leave you sore.

    I know you really don't want to be high,
    You work on yourself, I can see you try.
    But frustration and anger drive your deflect,
    Cause I see you get mad then self destruct.

    But this lonely and dark road you walk,
    So alluring at first reaching that fork.
    Yes you were silly I called you to stop,
    But mistakes are made, get back on up.

    Forgive those undoings and go on to find,
    The lessons to learn and wisen your mind.
    But it's up to you to choose and to grow,
    I'm simply reminding what you already know.

    You're capable of better and achieving much more,
    Change you must want and accept all your flaws.
    I'll continue to remind that one day you'll be free,
    But don't climb too far and get stuck in the tree.


    About Author

    25 yr old meth user trying to beat my addiction and repair the broken pieces that have become my life.
    My 5 years of mostly rec. use turned addiction when I began using daily from the start of 2018.
    I started this journal to express my unspoken thoughts, emotions, conflict and turmoil from my addiction and toxic relationship with meth. I hope one day it ends with a golden finish.
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