Third time is a charm, I guess.
Sitting here staring at this white space...
Cursor blinking.... Thinking.... I gotta get it right this time. Monday was the day. Its time to stop and move on with the rest of my life. I had been taking 72 loperamide every three days for the past two months from 400 just a year and a half ago when my heart stopped. The day it happened was not a great one. Been feeling bad but I had dosed the day before. So I wasn't sure. My stomach was swollen with what I thought was gas. I had been out of it for the most part. Nods and all. I used omeprozole with the loperamide but that didn't last long. Anyway, later that night I ended up collapsing. My husband performed CPR but couldn't get my heart to start. He ended up having to hit me to get it to reset. It did but brought on a seizure. After the seizure and my wounds were cleaned, I went to the ER.. I lied to them. I didn't tell them about my loperamide addiction. They assumed it was my gall bladder and removed it. Four days later, minus my gall bladder I went home. After that I lowered my doesage and held there until two months ago. I have been through many withdrawals off opiates but never anything like this. I managed to survive the tapers but now I am ready to jump off. I have a plan but it's not bullet proof.
Week one: 62 twice a week. My choice if I want to break the doses into 11 a day.
Week two: 52 twice a week or ten a day
Week three: 42
Weeks four: 32
Week five: 22
Week six: 10
Week seven: 2.
Now I want to go faster than this, if possible. Because I need time to recover before I start school on the 20th of January.I am on a town of vitamins as suggested by you guys. Melatonin, milkthisle, multi vit, probiotic for my stomach, potassium, Korean ginsing (my addition). I hope that this is right but I want to know if I can jump off at 62 and not feel too terrible. What do you guys think? Thanks for listening....