It's been awhile since I been on the forum. I was using.
I'm happy to say that I'm mostly detoxed from heroin. My last real dose was Wed morning. However I did find a couple of cottons to squeeze and some cans with residue in them. It was hardly anything at all in them. The last time I did one was around 11 pm Sunday night.
I'm having trouble dealing with my cravings. It's like I'm consumed with "want". It sucks. I don't want to go get it, but just use it. If that makes any sense.
I have my first appt with a Vivtrol doctor this Wed..they don't administer the shot at the first appt.. It takes up to two weeks for the specialty pharmacy to deliver the shot to the doctors office. And that depends how fast your insurance or my Medicaid works together to get it covered.
I know Vivitrol is not the answer. I know it's still going to be hard. But I do think it will help.
Ive made so many plans to detox, figuring out this and that and being confident and excited it would work. Then I would fail, so so so so so many times. Ive gotten to a point where I can honestly say I don't know what's going to happen. I'm going to try my hardest to get through it.
After my first Vivitrol appt on Wed I'm leaving the following Friday to go stay with a sober/non-addict friend out of state until my shot comes in and I can arrange it somehow that I arrive back home the day I get the shot.
I need advice on how to deal with the cravings. What are some things I can do to get through them without using? I don't have anymore cottons or residues. So I'm good there. I still have detox meds though. I'm doing an ultram taper with clonidine, ibuprofen, Valium, trazadone to sleep. I might even take a 1/4 8mg sub tomorrow or tues when I stop the Valium. I don't want a benzo habit.
Any advice would be appreciated! Thank you!!!!