Today , I have decided , it is time .......
I am not strong enuff today ,,, but I am again running out of room to move , for lack of a better way to describe what's going on ATM. ....
I can not keep lying to myself ,,, well you know what I mean ,,,,, I have sucked myself back in to ...............gawd ,,,, using daily
again ,, will I ever learn ,,,,,,, am I capable of change ,,,,,,, do I care enuff ,,, fucken hell I hate this. .....
What is the other me thinking ,,, I hate ,,,, I hate him and I am more than shore he hates me just as much. ......
I am very worryd about hartattack ,,, we have talked long about this and he does not want to quit ,, I don't think he can .....
That is a big problem and I may ,,,, I ,,,,, I, ,,,,,,I don't fucking know ,,, I think I may have to leave ,,, fuck me ....... ...
I am sitting here with him ATM talking about our adventures and all the shit we,s gotten up to ,,,, times of old ......
This is so hard and I feel so sick,,,, I would give all to not be here right now,,,,,,,, but I am ,, so I will deal with this anyway I can can ATM. .........
Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 118
- depression and drugs
- depressive disorder
- heroin addiction
- heroin relapse
- heroin withdrawal
- mental addiction
- mental health
- mental illness
- mental illness and drug use
- mental illness treatment
- opiate abuse
- opiate addiction
- support groups
- supporting heroin addiction
- treating anxiety
- treatment of major depression
- treatment of opioid addiction
- treatment options