A ,,, don't care today ,, moneys been found ,, the calls been made. ....
Just going through the motions....
Some days I feel that automatic switch on ,, then I no its all over! !!!!!!!
Can't find myself ..... I laugh at my stupidity in the face of my pain. ......
It hurts me bad but I ......well I just do it and deal with it later. ....
I. .....my junkys working over time, , again I lol ,, but I really want to scream and yell ......
I get so confused and although I am doing this to myself ,,the care factor fluctuates from the most powerful to the downrite
Dangerously fucked up mental problems ,,, and all this I modify befor it comes out .......
Fuck I get so upset sometimes ,,, I don't want anybody to see me cut up inside , so I change it all , most days ,, funny how I
Can change for the sake of others around me or maybe to save myself from being found out. .....
But I struggle so much to even want to help myself ,,, I have a good job and now this is going to be bad problem at work and is only going to make everything that much harder. ....
The tears have no meaning anymore and feel part of that auto pilot senscation.... wtf ...
How dumb do I feel ay. ......
I am sorry to be a downer today but it is what it is. ... ...
I am angery and upset , but I am surround by people and have no choice but to look and act the part and try to blend in ....lol
Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 120
- depression and drugs
- depressive disorder
- heroin addiction
- heroin relapse
- heroin withdrawal
- mental addiction
- mental health
- mental illness
- mental illness and drug use
- mental illness treatment
- opiate abuse
- opiate addiction
- support groups
- supporting heroin addiction
- treating anxiety
- treatment of major depression
- treatment of opioid addiction
- treatment options