Today I feel like nothing at all , I just want to fade away out of existance......
I can not keep up with the life I was trying to fix. ...
I just don't want to do any of this anymore ,, I have hidden my tears well today ,, but as I type this I can't stop them ,,, I don't care who sees me now, , I just don't care anymore! !!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like I want to hurt myself again ,, I want to make myself suffer and hurt. .......
I don't really understand why but money is a big problem ATM , so to now have a job ,, has made this all so much harder. .
The more I try to do the right thing the more I get depressed. ....
Now I feel as if I am fighting life it self ,,, this is just all to full on. .....
I want to run more then ever .....
Now I have a good job ,, work has never come to easy for me. ...
I love this job and for once I feel that I can do a good job and I am DAM proud of the work I do ,,, I am the face of this company ,,,,this is a job I was born for , ask anyone that knows me and that's what they all say.....
Why do I have to feel like this now ,, why now ,, why fucken now ,,, I don't understand WTF. ......
Why would I let myself get in to this , like this ,,, I must really hate me. ...........
Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 121
- depression and drugs
- depressive disorder
- heroin addiction
- heroin relapse
- heroin withdrawal
- mental addiction
- mental health
- mental illness
- mental illness and drug use
- mental illness treatment
- opiate abuse
- opiate addiction
- support groups
- supporting heroin addiction
- treating anxiety
- treatment of major depression
- treatment of opioid addiction
- treatment options