Well haven't had a second to ass scratch , so to speak...and this mornings shit fight for money to score is like the last straw. ..
Went and seen my boys last night , haven't seen them for a while and the way I felt , when the older of the 2 came up to me and put his head on my shoulder , he snuggled in and I could feel the love ......
Wow has me tearring up. ..
So enuff is enuff , I just have to do this now. ......
I can't stand the love lost , the love I have been running from all this time , I will do this , some how. ....
I was worried about my job and fucking it all up , but I am doing that a bit at a time every day ......
Seeing my kids has triggerd something! !!!!!
I NEED to start doing so much more but I have held myself down for so long , I think we all know what holds us back. ..
Am I ready to deal with myself yet , I mean for real ....
Gawd I no I am over it , sick to fucken death of score, in ,, chasing ,, spending and the feeling of never being happy
its not enough its never enuff ,, how unhappy we can make ourselves....
I am over the feeling of wanting to hurt myself , I think that was a needing to change at any cost. ..
I do understand why and how some people go to those extremes , now I need to learn how to get out of that/this headspace
Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 123
- depression and drugs
- depressive disorder
- heroin addiction
- heroin relapse
- heroin withdrawal
- mental addiction
- mental health
- mental illness
- mental illness and drug use
- mental illness treatment
- opiate abuse
- opiate addiction
- support groups
- supporting heroin addiction
- treating anxiety
- treatment of major depression
- treatment of opioid addiction
- treatment options