Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 131

By tryhard · Dec 3, 2014 ·
  1. A all , it seems I have painted myself into the corner well and true this time ,, again of course but well and truly all the same.
    You know it got me when I went on my twice daily trek to the 7/11 store to get a coffee and a banana and to find I have no money in the bank ......

    I knew I was down to my last ,,, well I just say my last two shots ATM one days worth. ....
    So it's not there rite and man I just fell apart , in public of course so I did well ,, don't think anyone really noticed me ...........
    having a meltdown next to the auto bank teller machine in the corner of the shop. ......

    Fuck I was so looking forward to the caffeine , fuck load of sugar and hit of H , but no coin no score! !!!!!!!

    So tryd to get hold of them anyway , no go , stressed , And in bad mood of course , I walked maby 5km , I felt ok and quickly
    Came around to relize what I was doing and feeling ,I defused myself and thought all's ok but they rang me shortly after and ofcause I sorted out credit till the morning , fuck now no morning shot .....

    So all along I new I was running out of cash and I was so ok with that , but today I panicked bad .. scared me a bit , one shot
    the last on and I wanted it right or wrong. ........
    Now tomorrow I gotta go and pay my bill and I got it but don't have enough to score , if that don't put ya in to instant WD and make u hangout you'd be a strong one ay.....

    Anyway that's tomorrow and I have been trying to walk to Hartattacks place , more like stumble ,, can't walk proper ....
    Upright but can not walk straight for the life of me ,,, been stumbling bout 2 hrs and normaly takes me 20 minutes ,, I'm only half way there .......

    I so hope it won't be to bad , due to the gear or H or what ever you want to call it ,,, is perticularly poor at the moment
    As aposed to last month the gear was really good so I found myself using twice as much ......

    Really good ability to function daily and shot two in the afternoon was just priceless , I could mood of if I wanted but still be cool about it. ....

    Now the gears back to old stuff ,, I am still using twice as much , no nood , barely function through the day and really hanging for the second or afternoon shot , can't come quick enough and feels like it dose fuck all. ...

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