A all , it seems I have painted myself into the corner well and true this time ,, again of course but well and truly all the same.
You know it got me when I went on my twice daily trek to the 7/11 store to get a coffee and a banana and to find I have no money in the bank ......
I knew I was down to my last ,,, well I just say my last two shots ATM one days worth. ....
So it's not there rite and man I just fell apart , in public of course so I did well ,, don't think anyone really noticed me ...........
having a meltdown next to the auto bank teller machine in the corner of the shop. ......
Fuck I was so looking forward to the caffeine , fuck load of sugar and hit of H , but no coin no score! !!!!!!!
So tryd to get hold of them anyway , no go , stressed , And in bad mood of course , I walked maby 5km , I felt ok and quickly
Came around to relize what I was doing and feeling ,I defused myself and thought all's ok but they rang me shortly after and ofcause I sorted out credit till the morning , fuck now no morning shot .....
So all along I new I was running out of cash and I was so ok with that , but today I panicked bad .. scared me a bit , one shot
the last on and I wanted it right or wrong. ........
Now tomorrow I gotta go and pay my bill and I got it but don't have enough to score , if that don't put ya in to instant WD and make u hangout you'd be a strong one ay.....
Anyway that's tomorrow and I have been trying to walk to Hartattacks place , more like stumble ,, can't walk proper ....
Upright but can not walk straight for the life of me ,,, been stumbling bout 2 hrs and normaly takes me 20 minutes ,, I'm only half way there .......
I so hope it won't be to bad , due to the gear or H or what ever you want to call it ,,, is perticularly poor at the moment
As aposed to last month the gear was really good so I found myself using twice as much ......
Really good ability to function daily and shot two in the afternoon was just priceless , I could mood of if I wanted but still be cool about it. ....
Now the gears back to old stuff ,, I am still using twice as much , no nood , barely function through the day and really hanging for the second or afternoon shot , can't come quick enough and feels like it dose fuck all. ...
Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 131
- depression and drugs
- depressive disorder
- heroin addiction
- heroin relapse
- heroin withdrawal
- mental addiction
- mental health
- mental illness
- mental illness and drug use
- mental illness treatment
- opiate abuse
- opiate addiction
- support groups
- supporting heroin addiction
- treating anxiety
- treatment of major depression
- treatment of opioid addiction
- treatment options