Heroin - and now i think its my time at last - Part 193

By tryhard · Jan 11, 2016 · ·
  1. A , how is it ??
    Today was a most productive day for me and I am a bit happier about being me ........
    I have saved the money for jeep engine ,,,,,, yay ,,, and during my energy rush today I have got jeep engine 99%
    Ready to come out and just have to go and look at the replacement motor.......
    And going to try and have it delivered and I want them to put it on the driveway ,,,,, so it will be only a few feet
    from the jeep and it will only take me a few hrs to get it
    all sorted .... then happy days.... yay...

    Then Ex rang to ask if I had calmed down yet ,,,,
    Ex then hang up on me as I tryed to explain why I have all wright to be upset ........spent an hour typing the best
    worded txt I have ever had the pleasure of putting my heart and soul in to .......

    Not a nasty word was typed ,,,,,, just a deep and meaning full
    explanation of how much she has hurt me.............
    I totally support her in any way and I just want her to be happy
    and I would do anything to help .......
    Even mind the boys so she could have some much needed time with mr rite.............

    Any way enuff of that shit ...........

    So I don't know how many days so far as I refuse to count or even to keep a track.........
    On Wensday I go in to see the doctor and I will ask him on some dates when I started this program.....it would be interesting to no ........... but I still don't want to keep a track or a count .... it's a personal thing yeah.......

    I am shore I will be pleased with that imformation but then I don't want to know for a while again.........
    I still want to go up another 10 migs more and I think that will hold me the way I want to be held ,,,,,, but it is over ,, my using
    days I mean .....it is finished but I am still a little , rattled about the ultimate length of time that all this is going to take....

    How long will I take to repair ,, can I possibly live / function on my own or am I going to have to stay on this mmt
    forever ......
    Ex was on mmt for over 18 years ,, but things were much much different back then with methadone and mmt ,,
    but also attitudes and the amount of imformation that was available to doctors........
    I supose what I am saying is I am not sure on what happens now ,, next ,, from ere !!!

    This will be a good question for my doctor to answer !!!

    Fuck ay someone just said DAVID BOWIE has just died.....
    Fuck there will never be another BOWIE again...... R.I.P...TO HIM ........ OH how sad ,, wow I only heard like 2 minets ago ,, wow wow fuck ay .........
    I was only playing his shit the other day wow..............


    So what a day it's been ,, I forgot to mention that I got pulled by the coppers this afternoon .......
    Went through the car I had borrowed to go and pick someone up in and didn't they do back flips when they found my takeaway ,, the one for tomorrow ,, they checked the name and the dates very carefully .......

    So it must be ok to drive in the state of Queensland in Australia ,, while on methadone ,, I find this quite funny as when they do a drug swab , they are not looking for
    Heroin .... but pot and uppers , mdma shit like that but not H....

    So I can have a shot of smach and drive a car .....
    But don't have a bong or a joint .......
    Whats that shit .....


    I am gunna do some more reading .......
    see ya in a bit

    Andy......

Comments

  1. cbabycee
    Hey Andy sorry I haven't been here a few days, I just didn't know what to say that I haven't already sweet and I have the flu :(

    Yeah Bowie :( death of a legend. My favourite film in the world is labyrinth!!! :(

    The drug driving laws have just changed here and you are not supposed to deive under the influence of anything but at the roadside they only swab for cocaine and marijuana, both of which you could have taken many days previous lol - or you could have very dry skin like me and not sweat so they probs wouldn't find either...

    I'm sorry about your ex mate, but you gotta stay strong for the kids and be the father they need. The father the clean you can be.

    And as for what next? What next is you get your life sorted. Somewhere stable to live so you an have your boys over. Somewhere you can call home, and sort out your car, and then when your life is a lot more stable you can consider reducing slowly.

    Until then just focus on fixing Andy..

    Love always

    Cee xx
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