Started working and have to cope with a lot things... Hiding my addiction, which still exists, isn`t always easy. But I somehow managed to get along with my co-workers and bosses. Some of them are really nice and we are spending some of our free time together. I know its far from a good solution (the situation overall), but at least I have work and keep myself occupied during the day (less usage).
I need to feel comfortable again (new home, "friends" etc.) to start again and reach my goal of becoming clean. At the moment Im keeping everything on a constant level (and try to decrease the usage step by step).
Not the news some of you might have expected I guess (if some still are following the things I write). But I just want to let you know that Im still alive and breathing.