To answer some questions real quick, my mom is back to drinking vodka... She started the night of my bday and was an emotional reck when I was leaving, my brother informed me she's been drinking heavily again.
I tried talking to her today and she said she was fine but I know she is struggling.
For me I'm struggling as well clean days then relapse days. Drama started this morning when te bf called me out on it. I need to stop crewing around and stay on track just bc I stay sober for a couple weeks doesn't mean I have the right to throw it all away on a couple days of using.
So I'm really going to stop. I know things will be bad before good karma always comes back to me.
I'm staying on the subutex.
I need to stay on a positive track and I will.
Other than that I'm trying not to pity party myself too much