Hi drugs forum friends. I am 25 years old and have been an heroin addict for about 4 years now. I used to do anywhere from .6 to a g a day. I would always smoke it. The past month ive been trying to quit and used subs when i didnt or couldnt get h but when i was able to score i would get it asap as the cravings and the sickneaa overwhelmed me. No one knows i really do it and i cant tell anyone as they would all push me away. The past couple weeks i would only smoke from .4 to a .2 a day. But the withdrawals would still seem so intense as if ive been smoking a g a day.
I want my life back. I want to be able to be happy again and not get sick and i miss my ex gf so bad. I feel as if i couldve gotten back with her but didnt want to be a dopehead when i did so i didnt try. I want my family to be proud of me. I want to be able to spend money on other things. Im broke now tho. Ive been trying to quit but its so hard. The physical symptoms for me are the worst part. The rls kills me. Im such a bitch when it comes to withdrawals.
I hate my life and so unhappy cus of this shit. Im still trying to quit as ive been crying everyday like a little girl but such a man when im high. Im going to and want to quit one way or another. I need my life back. I just want support. Im sorry i knoe this is like any other forum and im nothing special. Ive been told just quit being a bitch and quit and many other things and it puts me even more down as i feel so worthless and weak and dont deserve anything or anyone. Im sorry i just had to vent.
I currently would smoke like a bag or two one day then go cold turkey the next then start over that routine as i cant overcome this. Im broke and have no other meds handy. Im sorry to be wasting your guys time if youi read thi