Hello Folks, been coming to the forum here for quite some time in a variety of stages of drug use, given advice when appropriate and done plenty of my share of making matters worse for myself in terms of drug use.. The one thing I don't think I've ever done is post here in the Recovery and Addiction Forum. Theres been a reason for this I believe. I don't think I've really truly been ready to quit these medications. That is until now. Please know that Methadone has saved my life many times over and has been a very beneficial tool in my process. I just feel I've reached a point where its holding me back and preventing me from being able to function properly. For example, I haven't really been able to get up off my bed and leave the house for over ten days now and these events are becoming more frequent.
I don't wanna go on forever and bore you all. The reason I've come here is for the best support and help I've ever been able to find, anywhere. I've been a donating member here when I barely had enough to feed myself!I started tapering down from 268mgs of methadone and 30 mgs valium from the clinic in my town. I'm now down to 181mgs of methadone and 10mgs valium. However...in order to continue on I really truly feel like I need a stronger support structure than the one I have in place. I want to be able to hear from folks who have been in my shoes and have done it, or at least tried it.I've come to the last place I know I can find quality advice and people with experience who have done this before. I just pray there are those here willing enough to help me stick this out. I'll give back as much as I'm given and more. I've unfortunately got a lifetime of drug abuse here on this planet. Thank you for your time, god (or whoever/whatever you believe in)bless those who are attempting this and a prayer for all of us still suffering.