Addiction & our brains are so complex.
I feel like I have two brains, with different thoughts lol.
The real me wants to stay off heroin, I understand it's the right thing to do.
Then I have other thoughts that say I could have a smoke for a treat or use once or twice a month.
Im not going to listen to that thoughts, just more of an observation. It's amazing the length my head will go to try to talk myself into having a smoke.
I know full well occasional use doesn't work for me, it would just creep up untill I had another habit.
Im thinking of the other person that wants to use as the beast, like in rational recovery.
Talking to it & saying no actually works. Although I probably sound a bit mad