I really need some support, please help me - Part 102

By marathonmel7 · Oct 17, 2014 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I didn't go to basic training because I was an Officer in the Army. I went to what's called an Officer Basic Course out in Fort Lewis, Washington. I served for eight years and hurt my back in Iraq. I first used pain meds back in 2009 I think. I'm not sure of the year actually. I have a very bad memory especially when it comes to the military. I have chosen to block that part of my life out. It's easier that way.

    As far as nursing school goes, I have been kicked out because of my grades. I can thank heroin for that. I attended the West Coast University in North Hollywood.

    So yeah, that's that.

    Now onto today. I have good news. I have a job orientation next week before i go to court. The job is cleaning houses basically doing what I was doing before only with a better company. I am very relieved that this is happening. This means I could be starting work as quickly as next week. I passed the interview on the phone and now I just have to attend the orientation and I am set. I am hired. So, I almost have a job at this point. Just have to attend the orientation. Someone saw my resume and contacted me personally today. It was nice. I was so happy. WOrking will take away a lot of the depression I have and it will ease up the stress on my family as they are trying to support me right now.

    Today I'm feeling emotional and anxious. I have no cravings whatsoever. My dealer called me and told me about all the great stuff he had to include oxy's and heroin and I just declined and didn't even think twice. It felt good. He doesn't have control over me anymore which feels so good.

    Today is day 8. I am still feeling the withdrawals but not quite as bad. I just have an erratic body temperature, no energy and depression. A lot of this has been relieved though due to me getting a job. That's all I care about right now. I don't want my parents to do without because they are supporting me. My mom was upset today because she cannot pay my phone bill on time and I told her not to worry about it. They don't shut your phone off just because your late a few days. It's not a big deal but to my Mom it was. I hate that she is stressed out about me. I don't want her to be. My dad is distant and I hate that. That is a whole other thread though.

    Anyways, I guess that's it for now. Better news today. I think things are going to get better.


  1. Cam520
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Congrats on turning your dealer away.. thats HUGE in my book.

    At least for me, having that unlimited access is probably 80 percent of the reason I always relapse.

    Cam520 added 2 Minutes and 21 Seconds later...

    Another note, just FYI for future reference... I know of a school that does licensing for nurses who are both licensed (RN TO BSN) and unlicensed (to obtain the RN) that is completely online, and is the only accredited online university to be able to do that right now in the United States. Western Governors University. If you are ever interested in going back to finish that, with your experience and prior credits, you would probably finish quickly.. only catch is they have limited openings as its obviously something a lot of people want.. but with your background, Id bet you would be a shoe in.

    Anyways... if interested check it out.
  2. Beenthere2Hippie
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Short on time but wanted to say you're doing terrifically, and I for one am proud of you. See. Life always has something new up its sleeve. Even when you could swear it doesn't. So happy for you. Hey. It's a start.
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