Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
I didn't go to basic training because I was an Officer in the Army. I went to what's called an Officer Basic Course out in Fort Lewis, Washington. I served for eight years and hurt my back in Iraq. I first used pain meds back in 2009 I think. I'm not sure of the year actually. I have a very bad memory especially when it comes to the military. I have chosen to block that part of my life out. It's easier that way.
As far as nursing school goes, I have been kicked out because of my grades. I can thank heroin for that. I attended the West Coast University in North Hollywood.
So yeah, that's that.
Now onto today. I have good news. I have a job orientation next week before i go to court. The job is cleaning houses basically doing what I was doing before only with a better company. I am very relieved that this is happening. This means I could be starting work as quickly as next week. I passed the interview on the phone and now I just have to attend the orientation and I am set. I am hired. So, I almost have a job at this point. Just have to attend the orientation. Someone saw my resume and contacted me personally today. It was nice. I was so happy. WOrking will take away a lot of the depression I have and it will ease up the stress on my family as they are trying to support me right now.
Today I'm feeling emotional and anxious. I have no cravings whatsoever. My dealer called me and told me about all the great stuff he had to include oxy's and heroin and I just declined and didn't even think twice. It felt good. He doesn't have control over me anymore which feels so good.
Today is day 8. I am still feeling the withdrawals but not quite as bad. I just have an erratic body temperature, no energy and depression. A lot of this has been relieved though due to me getting a job. That's all I care about right now. I don't want my parents to do without because they are supporting me. My mom was upset today because she cannot pay my phone bill on time and I told her not to worry about it. They don't shut your phone off just because your late a few days. It's not a big deal but to my Mom it was. I hate that she is stressed out about me. I don't want her to be. My dad is distant and I hate that. That is a whole other thread though.
Anyways, I guess that's it for now. Better news today. I think things are going to get better.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 102