I really need some support, please help me - Part 107

By marathonmel7 · Nov 1, 2014 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Well I'm back. It's a long story but I ended up in the hospital in the psychiatric unit due to my psychiatrist. I had that appointment two weeks ago and I was honest about the way I was feeling. I told her I was depressed and really low and i was having trouble staying clean. Well the bitch decided to admit me to the hospital against my will. I was sent into the psychiatric unit for almost two weeks and treated for depression and addiction. They changed my medications I was on which was helpful and it gave me time to sober up. I was really upset at first that I couldn't get out of there and time dragged on awfully. It was so depressing in the unit but I met some really cool people and one in particular was a heroin addict too diagnosed with depression and bipolar like me. Needless to say, we hit it off and now I have a new awesome sober friend. We are working on our sobriety together.

    Finally yesterday late they let me go home out of the hospital. I have around three weeks clean. I have an appointment Monday with an addiction specialist to get some counseling and possibly I may get on some suboxone to stabilize. Not sure what i want to do yet.

    Anyways, I am ok. I feel much better. I am no longer depressed but my anxiety is bad. I guess with time it will get better. I've missed talking to all of you. I am ok. This whole situation has been a nightmare but in retrospect I guess it's what I needed and I met some great people in the process that I can lean on for support. I will never go to my psychiatrist again because she lied and said I was suicidal to get me admitted into the ER. She is a jerk and I never want to talk to her again.

    I am getting all new doctors next week. I can't wait. Also, a friend is moving into my house to help with my bills and to help keep me sober. Everything should be much better. i go to court Monday to settle my DUI and possession charges. Step by step I will get my life back. If I have to go on subs for a little while to do so than I will. We'll see what the doctor says.

    Hope all is well with everyone. Take care.


  1. Beenthere2Hippie
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Wow. That's some story. I'm glad that you're okay because as you guessed, lots of us were concerned about you, and wanted to make sure you're okay.,

    It was very wrong of your psychiatrist to forced-admit you as suicidal, as you did not talk of suicide on here but did talk about depression. Either way, that doesn't seem fair, as what you say to her should be confidential--unless, of course, she claims you were in some way a danger to yourself. Questionable call on her part there, I'm thinking.

    Sorry about the anxiety and do hope the new doctors concur on something that will be helpful but not addictive to treat your anxiety.

    Question for you: is the ex-heroin addict that you met at the hospital the one who is moving in with you? If so, how long has she/he been sober? If not, is the other friend who is moving in sober and if so, for how long?

    Just asking because, as you know, two people newly sober can get to hell in a hand-basket quicker and more efficiently than can one. You need very stable people around you at this point and cannot afford the problems of others to cause your downfall, know what I mean?

    No matter what, Mel, we're all glad you're back. :vibes:
  2. Booty love
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    i'm glad your ok!! the time in the hospital will probably make for some good stories, mine do. there are alot of truly, crazy people in there, people that need to be there. i was addmitted the first time, back in 2006, 10 days for addiction, then the second, in 2012, 6 days for stress, although my wife wanted me to go because i ended up going on a 4 day meth binge... but that was just the result of too mjch stress, not addiction. My experiences with inpatient mental health hospitals has taught me that i'm still a long way from crazy and that i really didn't want to committ suicide, i was just confused about what life is really about. I hope your life gets brighter mel! glad to have you back!
  3. TheBigBadWolf
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Hey Mel,

    It's good to have you back here. What a journey... I can't add much what the other two above me didnt say already -

    Take care, hun,
    a pack of good wishes for your immediate future is on the way through the interwebs to you!!

  4. cren
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I am not a religious person, in fact I am an athiest. But when I look at your thread, it seems as if you always get some kinda helping hand, like the traffic offence could of been worse, like when you od and didnt get brain damage or die, and now even though you were betrayed by the phychiatrist it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. You are now clean and have made a good friend.
    The fact that you worked so hard to be here and never gave up in the face of adversity means that if anyone can make the most of this you can. I know its hard when you have been through so much to learn to be happy but you deserve to be happy. I can tell you are a good person.
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