Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
Well I'm back. It's a long story but I ended up in the hospital in the psychiatric unit due to my psychiatrist. I had that appointment two weeks ago and I was honest about the way I was feeling. I told her I was depressed and really low and i was having trouble staying clean. Well the bitch decided to admit me to the hospital against my will. I was sent into the psychiatric unit for almost two weeks and treated for depression and addiction. They changed my medications I was on which was helpful and it gave me time to sober up. I was really upset at first that I couldn't get out of there and time dragged on awfully. It was so depressing in the unit but I met some really cool people and one in particular was a heroin addict too diagnosed with depression and bipolar like me. Needless to say, we hit it off and now I have a new awesome sober friend. We are working on our sobriety together.
Finally yesterday late they let me go home out of the hospital. I have around three weeks clean. I have an appointment Monday with an addiction specialist to get some counseling and possibly I may get on some suboxone to stabilize. Not sure what i want to do yet.
Anyways, I am ok. I feel much better. I am no longer depressed but my anxiety is bad. I guess with time it will get better. I've missed talking to all of you. I am ok. This whole situation has been a nightmare but in retrospect I guess it's what I needed and I met some great people in the process that I can lean on for support. I will never go to my psychiatrist again because she lied and said I was suicidal to get me admitted into the ER. She is a jerk and I never want to talk to her again.
I am getting all new doctors next week. I can't wait. Also, a friend is moving into my house to help with my bills and to help keep me sober. Everything should be much better. i go to court Monday to settle my DUI and possession charges. Step by step I will get my life back. If I have to go on subs for a little while to do so than I will. We'll see what the doctor says.
Hope all is well with everyone. Take care.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 107