I really need some support, please help me - Part 111

By marathonmel7 · Nov 8, 2014 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    My court case is just one big case. I got the DUI the night I was in possession of the heroin. It was all one big "fun" event… NOT! Anyways as I was saying earlier… that law passed here in California so my felony charge becomes a misdemeanor. I am super lucky.

    I got good news today. The director of the opiate replacement therapy program called me today. He scheduled me an appointment for Wednesday to come in. I will be seeing him and the psychiatrist for the program. I am still debating on whether or not I want to get on suboxone. I really think it's a good idea for the next six months. I don't trust myself in staying sober. I feel like I need the suboxone to stabilize myself and get my cravings under control. I feel as if it's kind of a crutch but with all of the legal trouble I am in right now I can't afford to relapse again. I don't trust myself and my cravings have been pretty bad since I've been out of the hospital.

    I do however feel like my depression is much better. My doctor's changed my meds and I feel much better. I don't have the manic state like I usually do. I feel a little bit more in control of myself. I just wish the doctor's would give me ambien which is what I need to sleep at night. They say it's addictive and won't give it to me. Instead, they are giving me Seroquel which does work but I need a higher dose than what I'm on. I am going to push for that this Wednesday when I see the doctor. The doctor has the same last name as me, kinda crazy huh? Too many weird coincidences lately. It all seems to be working out for me.

    It's been one week since I've been out of the hospital. This week went by fast. I've had so much anxiety about going to jail and whatnot. It's been a wild ride. I got a call today for a job interview working for H&R Block as a receptionist. I would rather clean houses but a job is a job. I have an orientation next month for a new company to clean houses with them. But I need to work now so hopefully I get this job at H&R and then I can clean houses on the side. I need the money so I will do anything right now. Christmas is coming and I want to be able to fly home to see my family for the holidays. I don't want my Mom to have to pay for my ticket if she can even afford to, I don't know.

    Well I guess that's all. I feel good emotionally right now. I am in a better place. I don't have to worry about court until next month. I have a good attorney who has my best interest at heart. She kept me out of jail this past Monday by getting the judge to wait on my Mother to fax paperwork to the courts. I'm hoping she helps me out with this next court date and my upcoming conviction. I will have the same judge that I had this past Monday and she was nice. She knows I am a veteran. I think that's what helped me Monday.

    Enough of all that though. College football tomorrow! Have a good weekend everyone. I am enjoying my freedom out of jail and the hospital!!

Comments

  1. Beenthere2Hippie
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    You sound great, Mel, and I'm super happy for that. You've been through a lot and have held on well. I get it now, with the DUI charge.

    I cannot help feeling that your judge, and all others tied to you and your case in the California legal system, realize that without a driver's license, you are not getting a job of any kind, anywhere close to where you live without wheels. That's just the truth. So, I cannot help but think that the judge will continue in her current mode and punish with you and serve up less punitive measures and instead stick to hand slaps and community service-type punishments for productive offenders like yourself.

    It makes no sense to let you off in the big ways just to harm you in a petty way such as that, which would fail to serve anyone, really. And government workers such as judges realize just that if the fine for the crime causes further loss to the state, then it will cost the state (in the long run) further money. Therefore, I don't think you'll lose your car or your insurance. Just my bet here, but I think you can count on its accuracy.

    Do hope your ballgames are good watching. Enjoy and I look forward to catching up with you this weekend.

    Cheers,

    BT2H
  2. cren
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Mel you sound like a completely different person from the one who first started this post.
    I remember when you used h in order to get through exams and look at you now!!! You have faced court sober!! I think you deserve a big congratulations you are coming along so well.
    I know at this stage you dont want to get to confident and you want to still remember why you want to be heroin free but I just wanted to say congratulations. Its important to remember the things that make you feel strong and positive and to hold onto that.
    I really hope that you manage to get everything sorted financially.
  3. TheBigBadWolf
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    mel,

    Please think it over with the suboxone.
    I have a seriously bad feeling towards you getting hooked on just another opioid.

    For anything else a big backpatting from your friend
    BBW
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