Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
My court case is just one big case. I got the DUI the night I was in possession of the heroin. It was all one big "fun" event… NOT! Anyways as I was saying earlier… that law passed here in California so my felony charge becomes a misdemeanor. I am super lucky.
I got good news today. The director of the opiate replacement therapy program called me today. He scheduled me an appointment for Wednesday to come in. I will be seeing him and the psychiatrist for the program. I am still debating on whether or not I want to get on suboxone. I really think it's a good idea for the next six months. I don't trust myself in staying sober. I feel like I need the suboxone to stabilize myself and get my cravings under control. I feel as if it's kind of a crutch but with all of the legal trouble I am in right now I can't afford to relapse again. I don't trust myself and my cravings have been pretty bad since I've been out of the hospital.
I do however feel like my depression is much better. My doctor's changed my meds and I feel much better. I don't have the manic state like I usually do. I feel a little bit more in control of myself. I just wish the doctor's would give me ambien which is what I need to sleep at night. They say it's addictive and won't give it to me. Instead, they are giving me Seroquel which does work but I need a higher dose than what I'm on. I am going to push for that this Wednesday when I see the doctor. The doctor has the same last name as me, kinda crazy huh? Too many weird coincidences lately. It all seems to be working out for me.
It's been one week since I've been out of the hospital. This week went by fast. I've had so much anxiety about going to jail and whatnot. It's been a wild ride. I got a call today for a job interview working for H&R Block as a receptionist. I would rather clean houses but a job is a job. I have an orientation next month for a new company to clean houses with them. But I need to work now so hopefully I get this job at H&R and then I can clean houses on the side. I need the money so I will do anything right now. Christmas is coming and I want to be able to fly home to see my family for the holidays. I don't want my Mom to have to pay for my ticket if she can even afford to, I don't know.
Well I guess that's all. I feel good emotionally right now. I am in a better place. I don't have to worry about court until next month. I have a good attorney who has my best interest at heart. She kept me out of jail this past Monday by getting the judge to wait on my Mother to fax paperwork to the courts. I'm hoping she helps me out with this next court date and my upcoming conviction. I will have the same judge that I had this past Monday and she was nice. She knows I am a veteran. I think that's what helped me Monday.
Enough of all that though. College football tomorrow! Have a good weekend everyone. I am enjoying my freedom out of jail and the hospital!!
I really need some support, please help me - Part 111