I really need some support, please help me - Part 117

By marathonmel7 · Nov 17, 2014 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Well today marks the end of the weekend and man did it go by fast. Today I picked up my friend Rob from the VA and we hung out all day. We spent some time outside in the beautiful weather, smoking and talking and relaxing. I had a good day. I didn't have cravings but I had terrible anxiety. I took some xanax throughout the day in order to keep myself together. Plus Rob and I cuddled and he helped to lower my anxiety. It's nice being in someone's arms, someone that is protective and someone you can trust. I really like him. I'm so glad i met him.

    Tomorrow I have to try to get in touch with my new job and find out when I start. I am looking forward to getting out of the house. Keeping busy keeps cravings away. Just like having friends around me does as well too.

    I don't feel like writing too much but I just wanted to say I hope everyone had a good weekend, Tomorrow Monday night football. Looking forward to another sober day. I have a lot of phone calls to make. I am probably going to go into a walk in clinic to get my inhaler refilled and my xanax prscritpion refilled if the doctor is willing to do it. We'll see. She filled it last time but she wasn't all that happy about it. I really don 't want to continue buying them off the street. They are expensive and I don't need to be doing anything illegal either.

    So, another day :) Hope everyone is well. Goodnight. I haven't eaten all day. I threw up my food all day because of the anxiety I was experiencing and just didn't feel well overall at all. My body hates me right now haha. Things will get better with time I hope. Until then, cheers everyone.

Comments

  1. lostlygirl
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I just wanted to stop in really fast before I went to bed.

    I am so happy you have found a kind soul. Being cuddled is probably one of the very best activities you could do right now because it releases all kinds of natural endorphins.

    You are doing really great, Mel, it really seems as if you have turned a corner and things are really looking up. You have done well.
  2. rapter
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Will I'm glad Mel, hope you have have a goodnight and day. Hope you start soon at your job. So you can't stay busy and money . Too.
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    Raptet
  3. Jungledog
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Mel,

    Good morning my friend. I just wanted to thank you for the love you placed on my thread. It came at just the right time. I woke up sick and I though "Oh fuck it. I can't win...might as well just accept I will have to keep using this shit forever." And then I read your post, cried, and pulled my shit together. I am off oxycodone...have been for almost 2 months and that is going to stay that way. Now I am conquering the kratom dragon but down to just 3 tsps.

    You sound good. Keeping your head straight really is the whole game. I am glad you have your friend. We can't do this shit alone. Remember too, you have us as well. I will always be here...and hell most nights I am up all night so just shoot me a PM.

    Keep fighting,
    Hugs to you...JD
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