Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
Hey all, hope everyone had a good day. I went down to the VA today to hang out with my friend Rob. We went to the park and lounged and talked. It was a beautiful California day. We also went to Starbucks and got some coffee. I did ok just had some major anxiety and had to take a xanax to get through it. I'm really struggling with anxiety right now.
Tomorrow I am going to call the doctor that's here locally about getting on suboxone. Cravings are pretty bad tonight and I'm finding myself quite tempted. I find that when I am alone and unoccupied I get into a funk and then my using brain gets talking to me and it makes me want to use. I still really feel like I need the subs to help with the cravings and get me stabilized.
Still no update on my meds being filled. Looks like I am going to have to wait until December 2nd. Oh and I found out today I cannot start my job until December. I really need the money. This sucks. I need to be gainfully employed so I am not tempted to use. I cannot rely on other people. I have to be able to fight this battle alone too. But, I'm still hanging in there.
I don't really feel like writing too much. Hope everyone has a good night. I'm going to go take some xanax and cuddle up to my dog and watch tv and hope for the best. Update more tomorrow.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 118