Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
Hey all, Happy Thanksgiving a little early. I hope everyone enjoys their holiday. I ended up picking up some heroin tonight. I just feel like using. Nothing is wrong or anything I just felt like I wanted to relax and chill for the holiday. I am having my boyfriend over for the day. I am going to take him to a nice park around my house. I know I shouldn't use but I just sort of wanted to relax.
Don't really have much to write tonight. Just thought I'd be honest in my thread and let everyone know that i decided to pick up tonight. I will get back on track after the holiday is over.
I had on interview with the Home Depot on the phone today. The questions they asked were tricky. THey really liked my resume so hopefully they think that I am a good candidate. The money will be better than the job I've been currently offered. I really need to be working. I hope it happens soon. My court date is on 10 Dec. I am looking forward to getting this all behind me. I have a lot of anxiety about this whole thing. I hope the judge goes easy on me. She was really nice the first time I saw her several weeks ago. She waited for me to get the fax from the bail bondsmen when she could have just sent me to jail. Anyways, I feel like she will be fair with me at any rate. That's all I ask for is fairness. I know I messed up and I'm ready to take my punishment. I just want this to be over with.
ANyways, you all won't be happy with my relapse. I am not really sweating it. I know it won't lead to regular usage. Anyhow, hope everyone has a nice holiday with their families. I will write more tomorrow.
i had a nice talk with my boyfriend. He apologized for acting the way he's been acting towards me. He explained his feelings and practically begged me to still be his gf. So, I am giving it a chance again. i really like this guy or else I wouldn't even give him another shot. He realizes that he cannot get mad at me for using Heroin when he is using other substances. We agree that neither one of us is "sober."
But, whatever. Don't feel like getting into all of it. We've come to an agreement and again redefined our boundaries.
Ok, well everyone have a good night. I will update more tomorrow. Goodnight everyone.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 125