I really need some support, please help me - Part 135

By marathonmel7 · Dec 7, 2014 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Thanks Andy for the message, it means a lot. I'm digging in deep to use this opportunity to break free from the chains that have held me still for almost three years. Enough is enough. I don't want to be a career addict. There's so much more to life I'm assuming. I'm really trying hard to believe that.

    Andy, follow in my footsteps brother! You can do it too. It's just one big mind fuck and you need a good strategy to win. You have to reach in and pull out all those nasty feelings and let them go. I've got a long ways to go. This is only day 6 but, I refuse to give in this time. No, I won't be tempted and anyone who tempts me is gone, out of my life. Now, if only I could get my connect to understand that I'm done with this game. He is still persistent and bugging me but, I'm winning. Eventually, he'll leave me alone. I simply, stopped answering his texts. His excuse for me picking up last night was for his birthday. I don't give a fuck that it's your birthday. I didn't ask for your dope nor do I need your dope and I could care less whether or not you have a happy birthday. Fuck. Give it a rest.

    Anyways, I believe anyone can do this to include you Andy. You gotta fight your ass off though. I am doing this all alone with only the support of you members here. My parents don't know that I'm still fighting this bitch on my back so it's just me to get through all this. I refuse to lose this time. My journal has been so up and down and I'm aiming for consistency now and for other people to really see that you can make it. It's important to me that this is a success story. And what a fucking story it's been.

    But, thank you for your support Andy. I know you can be successful too and to the others that are watching this thread. It's still quite early in the process but, I will get there slowly but surely.

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  1. lostlygirl
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I am running late for a photo shoot, but just wanted to say hang in there, and that I am proud of you! If I am remembering correctly, wasn't chronic pain the reason your ex boyfriend had you try heroin?

    Unfortunately, as you, JD and I are very quickly finding out, just because we are done with this shit in our lives doesn't necessarily mean our bodies are done with chronic pain. We are stuck been a rock and a hard place. There is no good solution when it comes to dealing with nerve injuries.

    Hang in there, my friend, we will get through this. I will post more later.
  2. Beenthere2Hippie
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Afternoon, Mel-

    Congrats on the ball game win! I know how intoxicating football can be. Like you at this time of year, my husband Joe can be counted on for rooting on his Kentucky Wild Cats. I know they've won lately, but I don't know anything else about who'd they play if they win again, etc. As I said, I don't watch college ball as a rule. Do hope your team, Joe's team and Booty's can all win--unlikely, right?

    It's a gray and drizzly day here in central Florida. If it wasn't for my new kitty, Grady, I'd be all alone, sitting home in the rain as Joe works his regular Sunday double (4pm - 7am). How depressing, right? But with Chinese take-out (another Sunday routine of mine), some good old movies on TV, a little bit of decent weed and You here online to chat to, how can I call myself lonely, right? (Boy, Grady sure loves the fried rice's pork!)

    So glad to hear that you're still on track and that other than some nerve pain, you're okay and doing well. That means a lot to us who are your friends and supporters. And when you get the opportunity ,do ask a physician for a gabapentin prescription, as it works really well for me and I'm guessing will for you, too.

    Also...I know I'm not supposed to ask (shut up, Been-there2!), but have you heard back from that guy friend of yours? Has he gotten back to you at all? Good, if so; his loss if not. What is your dog's name, by the way?
  3. Jungledog
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Mel,

    You sound MUCH better! Good!! :) The game really does play out in our heads so if we keep that shit straight then we win the war. Keep telling your connect to fuck off. He only cares about his profit margin.

    I am having a really good day. This Gralise crap (super gabapentin...not sure what they did to it but it works way better than the regular gabapentin) is amazing. Makes me tired and dizzy but I slept 10 hours last night!! My husband woke me up at 11 am!!! I never ever sleep past 7! And I have had no kratom in almost 29 hours. Other than my usual fatigue.. I have no detox symptoms!!

    We can soon have the rose parade!! Woo hoo!!! Much love to you. :)
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