I really need some support, please help me - Part 152

By marathonmel7 · Dec 24, 2014 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Day 22. Well today I woke up in a lot of pain. My back was really bothering me. I ended up having to get an injection in order to walk upright today. I was in a lot of pain. It made me quite grumpy upon waking. I feel better now but man, it was a horrible morning.

    I woke up with a lot of anxiety too. Had to take some xanax in order to get my head straight. I'm struggling with pretty bad morning anxiety. It seems to be an everyday thing.

    Things are going pretty good though. I have had some cravings but they are more like grumpiness. I get edgy. I don't wish to be high I just get crabby. It comes and goes.

    I'm still dating the guy I mentioned in my previous posts. He's sweet and I'm really starting to like him but I'm taking it incredibly slow. I am protecting my heart. He's pretty amazing though. I hope this goes somewhere. He's gorgeous. I don't know how I got so lucky. We have a lot in common and he's really understanding of my sobriety and addiction although we don't really talk about it much. My addiction has taken a back seat to the rest of my life. It's not in the forefront of my mind as much as it has been in the past. I can tell I'm getting over it and it's an amazing feeling.

    Tomorrow for Christmas Eve I'm going over to my girl friend and her wife's house for dinner. I am looking forward to it. They are such a beautiful couple. They were one of the first couples to get married after they made gay marriage legal. Such wonderful people and they've done a lot for me. I'm looking forward to the good food and good company.

    Anyways, that's pretty much it for me. Nothing new to report. Well there's a lot new but I need to keep some of it private for now. I will reveal some stuff later in future posts.

    Hope everyone is doing well. Christmas is almost over! Woo Hoo! haha I hate Christmas. I wish I could have spent the holidays with my family but I couldn't afford to fly home this year. So, I'm spending it with friends and the new guy I'm dating. Should be fun.

    Anyways, take care everyone. I will try and catch up on everyone's threads soon. Sorry I haven't been around. I will try to catch up soon. All the best!

    marathonmel7 added 12 Minutes and 52 Seconds later...

    I GOT PROMOTED TO TITANIUM!! Wow I feel so honored. Thank you so much. What an awesome gift for Christmas! Woo hoo!


  1. Jungledog
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)


    Super proud of you! You are doing so well. Have you tried doing yoga for the anxiety? It is very calming. You could also try valerian or chamomile.

    Enjoy your Christmas my friend! Love to you. :)
  2. charliecat
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    WOW Mel...Day 23

    I just had to pop in and say well done girl..

    I may have been quiet on DF recently while I fight my own battle but I always Keep up with your thread and I hope I get to where you are one day...

    2015 is gonna be your year...can you believe how far you have come from those first posts of yours..look back and remind yourself how amazing you've done..You deserve all your dreams to come true and you can go find them now your clean..
  3. lostlygirl
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Merry Christmas my friend! Congrats on yet another day opiate free!! Your the bomb, girl :)!! I am so proud of you.

    Have an awesome Christmas with your friends, they sound lovely. I only have a few minutes as I am off to open presents, but I wanted to wish you a day filled with love and happiness!!
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