I really need some support, please help me - Part 171

By marathonmel7 · Jan 6, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I am taking off work today. I can't handle standing on my feet today. I hope I don't lose my job being that it was my second day. It is what it is though. I really feel awful. I have no problem with pills and never have therefore, I have very little reservations taking them. I will however, not be doing it on a regular basis. Today is a 9/10 day. So, I just have to have some relief. As a result I am down to about a 6/10. I can handle that a bit better. I don't care what people say about me. My goal is to be heroin free and that IS what I am. I don't care what other people's clean definitions are because they aren't mine. I have no business commenting on their "cleanliness" and I don't feel that they have any business commenting on mine.

    Go through the trauma I've been through in my life and then you can comment period. I may sound defensive and I guess i am to a certain degree. It is what it is. I don't owe anyone an explanation. I am not getting high.

    So, I'm going to relax today and hope for the best.

    Hope you feel better JD. It's all about personal preference and I support you on your choices and appreciate the support back. Go get mortared, shot and experience an IED and then tell me what you'd do. That's my take. And that's all I will say about Iraq.

    Oh and I will say this too… I've been physically abused, sexually abused and raped by an ex boyfriend. So JD, we just might have a lot more in common than you think. This is my first admission of that ever in my life. So, I can't believe i've just written it but maybe now people will understand my PTSD and my chronic pain.

Comments

  1. Beenthere2Hippie
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Mel, when was the last time you had a complete physical (blood work, labs)? And do you know what the diagnosis and prognosis of your back are? Also, is your physical pain limited to your back?
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