I really need some support, please help me - Part 187

By marathonmel7 · Jan 28, 2015 ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    THE VA DOES NOT GIVE SCRIPTS FOR METHADONE! NEVER! THEY ARE RIDICULOUS. Now I'm going to stop my all caps before I get neg rep'd.

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    Day 53…

    Tried to go to the doc today and they said I had a bill in collections that my insurance never paid so I didn't get to see her. It's ridiculous that a combat veteran has to pay for medical treatment outside of the VA. I am so pissed. I am going to look for a psychiatrist because a GP can't really do what I need anyways. I will look for a doc tomorrow. I have to go into work today. Times are really tough right now. Financially I am so strapped. I don't know what I am going to do right now with all of the bills I have and various other problems I have. Being sober isn't really making these matters any easier. All of the ramifications of my using are hitting me all at once. I don't know what I am going to do.

    Anyways. I've got to go because again I have to go to work. I will write more later. Hope everyone had a good day.

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    Day 54…

    Wow what a difference in the way I feel today as opposed to yesterday. I tried temazapam for the first time last night and I slept eight hours only waking once and was able to fall back asleep fairly quickly. I have never tried this benzo before but it sure did work well. It was 30mg. My pain level upon waking was virtually none which is also unheard of. I don't know if the medicine had anything to do with that either. Maybe I just got lucky. But, i didn't wake up wanting to murder someone and no ptsd dreams. So, much better day.

    I'm expecting a call today from my recruiter for a new job prospect. I am so hoping I get the chance to interview but with my recent legal issues this may not happen. It's all up to the owner of this company on whether he wants to take a chance with me. It's a 3 billion dollar company and my job would be great. I am just dying inside hoping I get the chance to interview because I know myself and i can rock the interview.

    Things are going great with my guy although this long distance shit sucks. I should see him Saturday unless he ends up having to travel for work. I'm really hoping not. We talk in the morning and in the evenings. It's something to look forward to anyway.

    Other than that just trying to make it in this sober swimming pool. Upwards and onwards. Hope all are well. And as always thank you ALL for your continued support of my thread. It means the world to me.


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