Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
I have so much to say yet little time to say it so this will be short but I will add more later. There was another death in my family last night due to cancer. That makes three deaths in four months in my family. My mom is distraught and I don't know how to help her being that I'm 4,000 miles away. It's just more shit to add to the pile.
I have a DUI class this morning and I am in one big grumpy mood and I don't want to miss the Super Bowl so this guy better keep it short today. I am walking out when it's super bowl time. End of story.
Last night was a hard night. I wanted to relapse pretty badly after hearing the news that my family member had died and my mom being upset. I don't want her to be upset. She has enough on her plate. I feel like I contribute to her worries too. I have recently avoided delving in to my personal issues with her as to keep her safe from my drama. Plus, we've had some recent tension and I know my mom very well and I see it could progress into a big fight if I don't back off. So, I've kept communication strictly to email and that's about it. It's flowing better like this. She'll come around or maybe she won't. This is just the life cycle of our relationship.
Anyways, feeling really alone right now. This is hard. You'd think after two months I'd get it together but I'm still in the fighting stage. Sucks. I have to go shower though for my class. I will update more later. Take care all.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 190