I really need some support, please help me - Part 192

By marathonmel7 · Feb 3, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Day 59… one more day…

    I watched the video BT2H. I will DM you my feelings on that. I hate to say it but I've seen so much worse. So much worse. But, I know there was a lesson to be learned from watching it and you communicated it to me effectively. It just adds to the heartache though and my views on humanity and society and the government. Anyway, I digress.

    I actually woke up feeling good today. I slept fairly well, although medicine was involved. Never naturally do I sleep. I am not hating the world today like I did yesterday.

    I haven't got to talk to my guy because he was on a work trip and we couldn't' speak last night. But, I'm hoping tonight we can catch up and this weekend we can see each other. I really need to talk to him.

    I will just keep going. That's me, that's what I do. I have some new updates in terms of jobs but I don't really feel like writing it all down right now. Not in a writing mood. Just thought I'd provide a quick update for today.

    Hope everyone is doing good. Update more later.


  1. LuLu81
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Hey Mel.
    Sorry i haven't been.around for a while but I just want you to know I've been following your thread and have seen posts you've made. Good luck with the OOO crew. That will give you something to do (like i have suggested later on in my post)

    You are doing so well. I'm really proud of you. Your new fella seems exactly what you need right now. I know long distance is a pain in the arse but perhaps its a good thing as it means you take things slowly.

    I totally empathize with one of your earlier posts as I'm the same. I've only ever had a problem with heroin (and Methadone). I've never had a problem with pain meds. Yet my Drs wont prescribe me anything for the pain except for 60mg of dihydrocodeine per day, which is nothing. They aren't happy about prescribing it but i have managed to get a continuation after my operation, however then i was taking 120mg. So I'm lucky to get what i do. What gets me is I've heard of people with only one of my problems and they get fentanyl.

    Cravings can be a Bitch, however i can say from experience that the longer you stay clean, the less you have cravings.
    You really could do with finding a hobby that you enjoy. I know your schedule must be full, with you fulfilling your court obligations but you could find something to do, even if its only for an hour or two, like volunteering at your local animal shelter.

    Anyways. The last thing I'm going to say is, I've seen you give some amazing advice to other people in their threads. Perhaps you should learn to take your own advice, because the Mel who gives out that advice is incredible and will succeed, i know it.
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