I really need some support, please help me - Part 207

By marathonmel7 · Mar 1, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Day 84… Thank you ALL for these resources. I have began a profile on the site but I have to get together some documents so that I can get some help. Not sure if I will get the help I need in time. We'll see. I am trying other things though. I have some of my sentimental and expensive jewelry for sale and I guess I'm going to have to sell my bike which means so much to me. I don't know what else to do. It is what it is. I have another job interview on Monday for cleaning houses. I'm sick though and don't know if I can do this but I'm going to try. The company pays pretty well and there is a lot of freedom to navigate my own schedule. I passed the phone interview and MOnday is the orientation. So, I can use this job for income in the meantime while i wait for the other jobs I was offered this week. The financial position I got for sure Friday but the licensing costs 300 dollars which I don't have right now. But to get licensed, it only takes 6 straight days of schooling then a lot of training through the company. I really like the idea of the job but I really wanted that logistics job. It's just the DUI that's holding things up. The lady that interviewed me for the financial planner/advisor job gave me the job and is very sweet. THe company is very family oriented and cares about their workers. I am excited about it but I've got to get the money for the licensing so I will clean houses until I can pay it. But, cross your fingers for me cause the logistics job is what I really want to do. The financial job is my second pick. At least I have opportunities right now. I just have to get my rent straight first then I can go to school for it. We'll see. I am just thankful the cleaning company got in touch with me today. That's quick money and tips in LA are really good. That's quick and fast money which is what I need right now but it's hard, strenuous work and I am pretty ill as you all know. But, I will prevail over all this. I will keep fighting.

    I haven't heard from my guy so I have no idea if his mom is ok or he's ok. I am very worried about this. I'm trying to stay occupied today by looking for jobs and government assistance. We'll see. I just hope he gets back to me soon so I don't worry so much.

    Anyways, thank you again for the information JD and beach walk. I am trying to get help. My brother is trying to get resources for me too. It just seems that my disability is too much for eligibility for a lot of things and I have no dependents so I get denied immediately for a lot of things through California. They don't take into consideration that my bills are so high and I am behind in everything. They really should look at the whole picture and help me out. Even an EBT card would be wonderful right now so I had money for food and gas. I don't know. Something good has to happen sooner or later. THe fact that I can start cleaning houses this week is great though since my other job cut my hours. I will do what I can. Even cleaning one house a day for five days a week would bring in enough money for me to live. I just need help with my rent now before i get evicted and it's all due tomorrow. I have until he 7th to get it all paid though or I get evicted. So we'll see. I've asked a friend to help me out. I don't know if they can or will. They have children. But they are like family to me so hopefully they can assist me. And my guy was supposed to help but with his family emergency I don't want to bombard him with my problems. I don't know. I don't believe in god but I believe by doing the right thing this will all work out. I really hope it does in time so I am not homeless. i hate what my addiction has done. IT's destroyed everything and I will never go back. Never again. Fuck heroin and addiction. It's not worth it. You lose everything even your life if not careful.


  1. LuLu81
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Oh Mel, I really wish I lived closer to you so I could help you out. You've come so far and its not fair the adversity you are facing.

    I know so little about the way things work in the US, but in the UK there is a thing called a budgeting loan that people on disability (or any benefits) can claim if they have something that needs paying. (they just take a few pounds a week out of your money to pay it back). Is there nothing like this in the US?

    I really hope that you manage to get things sorted. Isn't there a way you can negotiate with your landlord to be reasonable with your rent, seeing as you have these jobs in the pipeline, or have your rent arrears gone to far?

    I don't know what else to say, apart from I've got my fingers crossed for you and really hope that things will get sorted for you.

    You know I'm here for you anytime you want to talk or just vent. I really don't want you to think your alone. As even though I'm thousands of miles away, I'm here for you as much as I can be, whenever you need me and there's so many people here that are routing for you and really care about you.

    Anyways, I think I've waffled enough.

    Take care and keep your chin up.
    Lu, XXX.
  2. BeachWalk
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    So glad you're looking into other avenues of help. You probably know of this organization but thought I'd give you the link just in case you didn't. They offer assistance with no need for repayment. They will pay for rent or car, etc. directly. The only pain is the paperwork but to speed things up you can fax it to them.

    Veterans of Foreign Wars - Unmet Needs

    In the meantime, an anti-depressant might help not only your emotional pain but physical as well. It may help you feel better in the midst of this situation w/your guy too. Anxiety, as we know, can be debilitating.

    Keep us posted. You are doing great so don't underestimate your strength.
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