I really need some support, please help me - Part 209

By marathonmel7 · Mar 2, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Yeah just tried calling my guy… no answer. Left him a voicemail. I don't know. I guess it's back to the dating pool for me. I thought he was the one though. I thought it was both mutual. Maybe it's just his family issues right now and he can't focus on anything. Maybe his mom underwent surgery for her brain. I have no idea. I just thought it'd be nice to at least get a text from him saying he's ok or not. I don't know. It destroys me it really does. I really put myself out there for him and developed feelings pretty deeply with him. I am not in love with him but i could def fall in love with him. We'll see. Only time will tell. I can't focus on that right now. I will have to just wait and see and hope for the best. But a broken heart emotionally and a physically compromised heart right now don't really go together. It sucks. I don't want either. So, whatever. We'll see. No matter what I know we will be friends for life. But maybe that will just be it. At least I know I'm capable of the emotion again after having thought I'd never feel the same again after my ex three years ago. I don't know. That's all I can say right now and I'd appreciate it if people wouldn't really bring this topic up right now. It's too hard. Just cross your fingers for me and him and his family's health. That's all I ask.


  1. Beenthere2Hippie
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Hey, Mel-

    You have had a bad streak of luck, but like Kitts said you're due for a break from all that bad, and I expect things will starting getting better for you sometime very soon. Have to tell you that I'm ultra proud of you for hanging in and not giving in. Few people could have kept their heads together with all that happened in your life recently. But you did. That surely makes you a fighter; and fighters get through their dilemmas--even ones that are as scary as all you've been facing in the past few months. You'll see.

    For money, have you thought of getting a loan on your jewelry and/or bike rather than selling your stuff outright? If you can get to a decent pawn shop, you could do just that, and then get your stuff back instead of selling them away forever. It may get you the money you need for rent. Just a thought.
  2. archieboy
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    hi Mel, ive been reading your posts from when you started and I think you are amazing. You have coem such a long way, well done. I have been smoking H for 4 months (1g per day) and today is my first day off it in 4 months. After reading your posts i know i wont go back. What WDs do you think i`ll receive and when will they start?
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