Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
Well finally some good news. First of all, I met my new roommate and we sat and talked for three hours. She's in her forties, not sure if I mentioned this and is really pretty and sweet. We got along instantly and both have the same goals professionally. She is paying me good and will stay for three months. If things go really well then we will move into a two bedroom and then I will only have to pay 900 a month instead of 1700 I currently am paying now. She is moving in tomorrow and paying me. I also sold some jewelry today and got some money for that and my friend from the military paid money towards my rent so with all that I can now pay it all tomorrow! I am so happy. No eviction for me and I even get to save the next three months on rent. I am behind on all my bills so this is wonderful.
Second order of business is the logistics job I interviewed last week for with no sleep. They all loved me my recruiter said and they want me a part of the team. It's just my DUI that's slowing things up. The head boss wants to meet me next week when he is back in LA. So, my recruiter said to just be patient and he believes i will get the job. This job will literally settle my financial destruction within a year. All of my debt would be nearly paid off if I did it right, that's how good this job is. So, hopefully they give it to me DUI and all.
In the meantime, I am waiting to see if I pass the background check for the cleaning company so I can start cleaning houses again until I see about the logistics job. Then, I have an orientation Wednesday night for the financial planner/advisor job with my boss. I cannot afford to get licensed just yet but in a few weeks i can. So, I can clean houses, save the money for the license, and then go to school and get the license. Then I have to go through extensive training before i can actually start with the company. Not sure how long this will all take. I will know more on Wednesday.
I'm just so happy I have someone moving in here. She is wonderful and my dog liked her which I feel is the best judge of character. This is all going to help me out so much. I don't know why I didn't think of this all before. I should have gotten a roommate a long time ago. I just didn't think people would want to live with me in a one bedroom but she's happy to stay on the couch so we'll see. And who knows, she could end up being my roommate for more than three months. We'll see. We are both transitioning in life and this is just ideal for the both of us right now. So, tomorrow I will pay my big rent bill and be done with it! YIPPEE!!
Anyways, I'm not feeling so well physically today. I'm coughing A LOT from this stupid fluid on my lungs but I was able to eat my first full meal today for the first time in over two weeks. It was so good too. I actually enjoyed my food for a change. Organic chicken enchiladas. Yummy!
I just wanted to update really quickly. Not sure what day i'm on sobriety wise but March 6 will be my 90 days!
I texted my guy tonight or should I say… the "used to be my guy" and just told him a lot of good things happened today for me and that I wanted to share them with him and wished him well and told him I hoped he and his family are ok. That's all I could do. Just kept it short and simple but felt the need to at least let him know some good things are happening with me and that he was in my thoughts. I don't want to be a stalker though so I'm not calling him. If he calls or texts than great but i"m not holding my breath and I'm not chasing after him.
So, that's pretty much it. I just wanted to share my news. Things finally went positively for me today. Now if I could just get this job… it's not just a job… it's a whole career, a life change for me and something I really want deeply.
I go to court next week and I'm quite nervous about that. I hope the judge is happy enough with my progress. I cannot afford all the money and stuff so I just have to move at the rate I'm going right now. I go to probation on the 6th, before court which is on the 10th. We'll see if they have my case yet. I'm not holding my breath on that one either. LA sucks.
So, goodnight all. Thank you for keeping me positive when I didn't think I could live another minute. You all kept supporting me and it means the world to me. I'm off to rest and try and get some sleep but this darn cough will most likely keep me awake.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 212