Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
I go to the doctor tomorrow. We'll see what all they say. So far, nothing. Just tons of meds. The pulmonary edema must be getting better cause I stopped coughing so much. I'm just so damn tired. When I take a walk I am out of breath and I've been sleeping a lot. I'm super tired all the time. I am going to tell the doc I don't want to be on morphine anymore. I just don't want it and it doesn't really help all that much.
Today I went to court and the judge seemed happy with my progress. She wants me to start paying my court fines though which is almost 600 dollars. I will as I can. My next court date is in three months. I've got to start my DEJ classes, or drug classes. They too are expensive. I am doing what I can as best I can but I won't be done in three months that's for sure. I do have to start my community service she said. blah. I feel like I was a veteran and did 8 years of community service, why should I have to do any more. That's crap but oh well, I will take my punishment. At any rate, I didn't go to jail and that's all that matters to me. So, onwards and upwards.
Still haven't found out about this job. I'm getting aggravated. I want to know already if they are going to take me in with my DUI or not. Just make a damn decision. It's not that hard. In the meantime, I'm still looking for other jobs.
THings are ok though. I may not go out with this guy to this event after all. He called me drunk last night and was talking all weird and stuff. I didn't appreciate it. I will have coffee with him tomorrow and see what he's all about and make a determination from there. I'm being very careful as to who I let in my life this time. Plus I am still very much heartbroken over the last guy whom I still haven't heard a thing from. It makes me so angry that he can't be a decent human being and tell me what I did wrong or tell me what the deal is. So mad.
But anyways, I digress. I will update tomorrow. Going to go back to laying down. I'm just flat worn out today.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 218