I really need some support, please help me - Part 218

By marathonmel7 · Mar 11, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I go to the doctor tomorrow. We'll see what all they say. So far, nothing. Just tons of meds. The pulmonary edema must be getting better cause I stopped coughing so much. I'm just so damn tired. When I take a walk I am out of breath and I've been sleeping a lot. I'm super tired all the time. I am going to tell the doc I don't want to be on morphine anymore. I just don't want it and it doesn't really help all that much.

    Today I went to court and the judge seemed happy with my progress. She wants me to start paying my court fines though which is almost 600 dollars. I will as I can. My next court date is in three months. I've got to start my DEJ classes, or drug classes. They too are expensive. I am doing what I can as best I can but I won't be done in three months that's for sure. I do have to start my community service she said. blah. I feel like I was a veteran and did 8 years of community service, why should I have to do any more. That's crap but oh well, I will take my punishment. At any rate, I didn't go to jail and that's all that matters to me. So, onwards and upwards.

    Still haven't found out about this job. I'm getting aggravated. I want to know already if they are going to take me in with my DUI or not. Just make a damn decision. It's not that hard. In the meantime, I'm still looking for other jobs.

    THings are ok though. I may not go out with this guy to this event after all. He called me drunk last night and was talking all weird and stuff. I didn't appreciate it. I will have coffee with him tomorrow and see what he's all about and make a determination from there. I'm being very careful as to who I let in my life this time. Plus I am still very much heartbroken over the last guy whom I still haven't heard a thing from. It makes me so angry that he can't be a decent human being and tell me what I did wrong or tell me what the deal is. So mad.

    But anyways, I digress. I will update tomorrow. Going to go back to laying down. I'm just flat worn out today.


  1. Voltar
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    I had to move out of the city to quit H. I do have chronic pain and got put on methadone but damn I loved that h! I would trade some of my methadone and other stuff for it in a heart beat!

    Sorry I know that doesn't help, but methadone and valium will help and make you sleep. You wont have wd's but you won't get the buzz you are used too.
  2. LuLu81
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)

    Mel is over 3 months clean now and has reiterated many many times that she does not want to go onto Methadone.

    Obviously she now doesn't need it for withdrawals but she wont want to go on it for chronic pain either.

    I can understand that reading the whole of this thread may be daunting, but even by reading the last couple of pages, you would see that what you suggest is unnecessary regarding Methadone.

    She is at the moment going through a lit of health problems (very admirably I might add) and has said, only a few posts back, that she is currently very tired and is sleeping a lot. So I don't think taking anything to help her sleep is necessary at the moment.
  3. Jungledog
    Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)


    The morphine is probably helping more than you think. It decreases the workload of your struggling heart and reduces the heart failure. It probably does jack shit for pain though plus it is super freaking constipating.

    The fatigue is to be expected unfortunately. The infection plus the reduced ejection fraction will make even slight activity exhausting. Don't fight it. Rest.

    Wishing you continued strength.
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