Re: I really need some support, please help me (Heroin)
Day 105… two ear infections now ugh! Sucks. Guess I got to go to the doctor and get some treatment for them. My equilibrium is all off and I can't hear well which is bad because I lost most my hearing in iraq anyways so now I'm even more deaf haha. Fuck.
ANyways I missed Andy's call again. Hopefully, tomorrow I hear from him again. Was literally sleeping all day. All day. I am so worn out.
But, thanks for everyone's kind messages. They help keep a smile on my face. I am especially broken hearted tonight. I miss the guy that dicked me over and tried texting him one more time. I won't try again but I just had to. I couldn't help myself. I miss him so much and just can't stop thinking about what happened. But, I digress. This will go nowhere and you all must think I'm such a moron and should let it go. I just need some fucking closure. Gosh. What if he died or something? I don't know.
Anyways, off to bed. My dog is snuggled up next to me and I'm going to hold on to him tightly. I need that right now. Cuddling. Sounds so good. Just wish it were with a significant other. Oh well, someday I suppose. Goodnight all!
marathonmel7 added 1280 Minutes and 53 Seconds later...
Well, some good news today. I am having my last (fourth) interview with the company I've been waiting on to hire me. The guy is finally in town in LA and is meeting with me next week. This is the make it or break it interview. This guy is the one that says yay or nay so wish me luck. He already knows about my DUI so I'm just hoping he will hire me anyways. It's a really good job and my financial issues would simply melt away and I could begin sending my mother money that she needs. I want her to be able to get her own place and get a new car. She desperately needs a new vehicle but can't afford one. If I get this job, I will buy her a new car after I catch up financially.
Anyways, I'm struggling cause i've got two inner ear infections right now. They are affecting my ability to do the simplest of tasks. My equilibrium is all off and my balance sucks and my hearing is bad. i've already got 80% hearing loss in my left ear and 30% hearing loss in my right ear from Iraq and so with these infections I can hardly hear anything at all. It's tough. I guess I will have to go to the doc tomorrow ugh! That just means they will keep me there longer than I want to be because they will want to check my heart again and all that crap. Blah!
Anyways, Andy or Tryhard called me today. It was so nice hearing from him. He's such an awesome person. He's sober and doing much better. I will let him update his journal on here and give you the details and keep our conversation private but I just wanted you all to know he is ok! It's great to hear from him though. I've made such great friends on here it's amazing. Literally all over this world!
So, that's pretty much it. I'm going to go lay back down. I'm pretty weak today. need to rest some more. Have a good day/night everyone!
I really need some support, please help me - Part 222