Re: Heroin; I really need some support, please help me.
Thanks for the message Tryhard and everyone else. I am desperately trying to get into a program so that the courts will see that I'm trying.
Today was bad. I was about 32 hours into my detox when I ended up caving in. I don't know why I did this. I sabotaged what little clean time I had. This is the longest I've gone in a very long time though. I did one shot and now I'm back to square on again. I'm still determined to beat this. i wish I could got to rehab because I think it'd help me at leas the demo portion would.
I am going to stay the course now. Yes, I slipped up but I still really want to beat this addiction. I'm still a little sick so I don't know how this relapse will affect my detox process. I hope it doesn't set me too far back.
I have a cycling event on Saturday with my friend. I know I'm going to be sick but I don't care. I have to do this bike ride. It's 62 miles. I'm not sure how many kilometers. Anyways, that's my motivation for getting clean. I don't want to be dopesick on my ride with my friend.
I missed my vein tonight and now my arm is all swollen. I got frustrated and didn't really pay attention. I was feeling so bad and I just wanted to get the H into my body as soon as possible. Now my arm hurts. I deserve it though. That's what I get for being stupid.
Anyways, I just wanted to update my thread so you guys can keep me accountable. I feel like success is right around the corner, Just need to work harder. I will do it. I can do it.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 84