Re: Heroin; I really need some support, please help me.
Thanks JenK for your post. It made me feels supported. Today is day 3 and I'm about 62 hours in. I am making it on 1mg of xanax and so far no suboxone today. I'm going to try not to use any suboxone today as yesterday I ended up using 6mgs which is way to high to taper. I was just feeling so bad that I took more than I intended on using. I have 2mgs of xanax left and 9mgs of suboxone left. I should be able to make it through the next few days on that. I feel ok, better now that I took he subs yesterday. I am still in a low, depressed mood and I'm looking frantically for a job but first I have to focus on my court date for tomorrow. That's the most important thing.
None of my friends think I will get any jail time as I've said before but I'm planning for the worst so I can expect the worst. I don't know what's going to happen unfortunately. I am already in an outpatient rehab program so I don't see how they can send me to another rehab when I'm already attending one. We'll see though. The judge could be a dick or maybe a compassionate person. Either way I'm prepared for the worst.
That's all to report right now. I'm focused on my sobriety and my court date and getting a job. Three major points in my life right now. DF has been so supportive of me and I thank everyone of you that have read my journal and commented. It means so much to me to know I have people that care. Thank you truly.
I really need some support, please help me - Part 92