That's a ton of melatonin! I take 5 mg. and didn't know you could take more. Might have to try that.
You sound like you're doing great! Even with hellish mornings, you'll make it through.
I cut my hair off, don't laugh (it was long and girlish), so that I would have to be more patient and so that I could visually watch my taper, if that makes sense. It should be back to what I would consider "long" when this taper is over. That was this weird psychological moment of forcing myself to commit to this stupid, long process while creating a tangible end in site.
I feel like I've hit a real impasse reducing so I've gone back to 19 mg. and am just sitting there now, waiting. It's only been a week and a half or so since I reduced, but I really barely feel alright and don't want to go over the edge. Hopefully, my brain will get used to this. Every few doses, I try to nick a bit off so that it's stlll a bit less at least. But I'm trying hard to get "okay" with this current dose because I have to stay functional. I'm on the precipice of anxiety attacks more often now and can feel it, but I haven't actually gone over the edge yet, thus my maintaining my dose for the moment.
This is so not fun. Before, I wasn't feeling it at all.
Take what you read in some stride because I found 2.5 mg cuts were personally too large for me, and then I read others dropping micro-bits off each day with water titration, and I wouldn't do that either, so it's all between you and your neuro-receptors
I've been mainly just on valium for a week after twenty years of xanax - Part 33