I'm back in the thick of another attempt at detox
I'm at the start of day 2 and all the usual shitty symptoms are here...although I've now been through this many times over the past year it still takes me by surprise how overwhelming it all is
I can feel as strong and determined as is possible before I start detox but as soon as it starts I turn in to a weak and pathetic loser
I swear each attempt gets worse
I'm completely on my own this time...don't know if that's good or bad..my kids are away for one week and I phoned in sick at work so here goes...
I can't concentrate on anything at the moment..the battle in my head is raging..Will I use..Will I stick it out this time?? I know what I really want just don't seem to be able to get there. One positive is that I am now to sick to go out and hustle for a shot so looks like I will have to lay here and suffer until it gets better.
Not looking forward to next few days but Here i go again...