ive finally jumped from 20 year Heroin habit - Part 90

By charliecat · Feb 19, 2015 · ·
  1. I'm through another day..

    I managed to get my first proper sleep last night (4 hours) but for some reason I woke up feeling dreadful which if I remember has happened on my previous attempts. I pray for sleep and when it finally comes I feel worse than ever when waking. It feels like every muscle in my body is knotted up and it hurts like fuck. What I've gotta try and remember is that it does get better as the day goes on. Usually I would stay at home feeling sorry for myself but I am going to force myself to get to work as keeping occupied is key for me.

    It is so cold here in UK I feel constantly chilled to the bone and its painful and makes me feel depressed but spring won't be long and I cling to being clean for the summer and getting out there. My friend has promised if I get and stay clean we will go travelling to Australia later this year and this is my motivation to keep going.

    I think today is going to be difficult but here goes..I'm gonna drag my sorry ass into a hot bath and go to work and get another day further away from this addiction.
    C

Comments

  1. prescriptionperil
    You're doing so well. A hot bath sounds good. Perhaps you should take the money you saved on heroin and get a massage. I mentioned the sweating, as I have a script for medical massage. Someone assured me they won't notice. Well, I guess under the guise of massage oil the sweating could be concealed.

    All the crappy acute withdrawal symptoms will cease. Given I took opiates for pain, I bought d phenylalanine online, as it helps with natural endorphin production. I also abused extra meds for vaca, prior to beginning a steady illicit sub taper. The system is computerized, so I didn't want the world to know.

    Dam my back hurts. God, I married a hoarder, who has been irritable as fuck. I cleaned out his freaking pay stubs only to find he saved the envelopes my opie scripts came in. I told him to throw out his pay stub.

    The weather here has been bitterly cold, with lots of snow.

    You should be so proud. You don't want to go through this bullshit again. Fuck heroin.

    If you get a craving, grab a piece of paper to honestly assess the pros and cons of scoring.
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