I'm through another day..
I managed to get my first proper sleep last night (4 hours) but for some reason I woke up feeling dreadful which if I remember has happened on my previous attempts. I pray for sleep and when it finally comes I feel worse than ever when waking. It feels like every muscle in my body is knotted up and it hurts like fuck. What I've gotta try and remember is that it does get better as the day goes on. Usually I would stay at home feeling sorry for myself but I am going to force myself to get to work as keeping occupied is key for me.
It is so cold here in UK I feel constantly chilled to the bone and its painful and makes me feel depressed but spring won't be long and I cling to being clean for the summer and getting out there. My friend has promised if I get and stay clean we will go travelling to Australia later this year and this is my motivation to keep going.
I think today is going to be difficult but here goes..I'm gonna drag my sorry ass into a hot bath and go to work and get another day further away from this addiction.