I have been on mmt for a few months now and a few weeks ago relapsed onto heroin. I started to use large amounts ( im a smoker ) on top everyday so obviously my methadone daily dose is insufficient to hold me properly from the hell of withdrawel i have spoken with my drug worker and she has said that i cant up my script untill monday so iv had to buy a few grams of heroin to last me so i dont have to go through withdrawal. But im back in that hell of lying and cheating my loved ones . Im back smoking heroin in public toilets teriified of being caught and found out that im a junkie. And i can never enjoy a high from heroin once you become addicted because for me im always worrying about when its going to wear off even when iv just used. Thankfully i think i do have enough h to take me to monday . I guess im just looking for abit of reasurance now im on here with you guys and to here abit of your own experiences with the hell that is opiate addiction . God bless everyone have a safe weekend .