Day 7: 3 in the AM and 3 in the PM.
Slept 8 hours last night! Still kickin' here in Georgia! Absolutely NO withdrawals so far since last post, except for a few sweats, stomach rumbling. I know when I jump off this is gonna be crazy, but who knows. We shall see. I have to be positive, but I've seen too many suffer so I have to be realistic.
So I went to a meeting at lunch yesterday and I forgot to report my findings. I was picked up by a woman with 30 years sober and clean. YEAH whatever! She is a southern lady who dresses like she just walked out of Nordstrom. But she is so down to earth, funny and humble. She told me that if I continued to go to these meetings one day at a time I could know joy and peace I have never known. AND be clean and sober AND be happy. So we went to the meeting and listened to some woman tell her story with 37 I KID YOU NOT 37 years clean and sober. She looked like an angel. Anyways, more hope and inspiration than I can report. She, too said she worked the 12 steps, found a God of her understanding and has been free ever since.
Then we went to lunch, and I sat at a table with about 10 women, and I am talking about women from 40 years old to 90 years old. One woman, 45 years sober, one with 27, one with 30, one with about 35 years sober and I don't think anyone had less than 25 years sober. What? I am for real internetland peoples! I'm just sitting there listening and watching in awe, knowing they knew something that I wanted to know.
Whatever if this sounds kooky. I don't care because if it helps me, then I can help someone else and on and on.
So another meeting tonight and I'm just walking on some clouds here and wondering where this beautiful day and evening will take me. Screw the withdrawals, if they come then we will go through the day.
I am clean and sober and I am alive. and happy!
gbread added 587 Minutes and 41 Seconds later...
I'm back now. Great meeting. A lot of really kind and loving people. Probably 50 people there tonight. The meeting was about anxiety in early sobriety and how it WILL go away eventually once you have some time away from a drink or drug. But it just takes time.
I have to be honest. Now I feel anxious and sad. I know it's just withdrawals. I'm also starting to sweat and feel the jitters. Oh well, I will persevere. I'm NOT going back! I'm taking a clonidine and hydroxyzine so I will hopefully sleep well tonight. Anyone need to talk., I'm here for awhile.
Thank you all so much for being there for me. I don't know how I could've made it this far without you.
Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart. Love and Hugs, GBread