Thank you Kitts. I do really appreciate the encouragement. The ER doctor knew only a little about it, but knew it was like an opiate. I went to my regular doctor and she had never heard of it! She referred me to an addiction center, which I went. They hadn't heard of it and the nurse researched and found MadMargaret's blog and printed it out. It was the same blog that helped me so very much.
Last night was rough. I slept 6 hours. I tossed with sweats and very very slight stomach rumbling.
I will take 3 this morning and 3 tonight. I don't think the doctors realized how painful it is to taper doses so quickly. It can be horrible if I jump too fast and Ive got my 99 yr old grandma and parents to watch after. I have to function somewhat. I am going to a meeting today and try to be of service to others. It's the only thing that helps.
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One more thing, I need to be honest. I have cried so much, thinking how terrible I am for doing this to myself. I Just feel so down on myself that something must be terribly wrong with me to have me get myself into such an awful situation. Does anyone out there understand this terrible pain?! How am I going to get my life together? Do I have a purpose? Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself and that is not good either. Just wanted to babble on...thanks for listening.