Day 21- 3 in the a.m. and 3 in the pm ---6 loperamide 2mg pills.
Slept 9 hours. Woke up with no physical withdrawals--however, sadness and anxiety are still here.
I'm glad you're doing better and I cant wait to fit in my old clothes! I used to have fun with dressing
up and shopping before all this drug crap. It has affected every area of my life, that's for sure. If I had
known all the things I would lose, I would have never touched a pill. UGH Will write more on your thread.
I am so glad you're kickin' along with your kratom, and I had no idea it helped with weight loss. Now it
may be serious to look into. First I am trying this slow taper. Why change something that's working,
right? You sound so different, RD. I am glad for you! It gives me hope.
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Went to a meeting today and it was awesome. I still don't understand people that don't understand
these withdrawals. I can tell them many times and they still don't get how much they affect us.
I know people mean well, but I can't possibly work outside the home or go on 'outings' when I am
concerned with where the bathroom is, or can I lay down somewhere for an hour if I feel bad.
It puts a burden on the social calendar, and I think I've pushed a few people away. I am not fun to
be around, I cant concentrate well yet. I am not as cheerful as i'd like to be, and I just choose to stay
inside for that day. Like today.
I went to a meeting, could've gone other places, but I just don't feel well. I don't feel super withdrawals,
but I don't feel 100 percent. People take it as I am being unsociable or rude, but I don't feel generally
well. I don't know if that makes sense, but at least I know what I'm trying to say!
I am glad for REAL friends and family who are caring and loving and patient, until I get my physical
strength back, and can join life again. I want to do that so badly, just not yet.
Much Love, GB
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Day 22- 3 in the a.m. and 3 in the pm ---6 loperamide 2mg pills.
Got about 6 hours of sleep last night. Sweating, RLS, nightmares.
Took clonidine and feel much better.
Crawled in bed for a much needed nap. Before that, went to a meeting.
Thank God for my family. I am fortunate to have them in my life. Glad to have people that I can really trust.
I am seriously thinking about jumping off at 5 pills this next week. At this rate, the withdrawals could go on forever. I have got to get a job and pay bills. I am so bfar behind in my responsibilities., it's not funny.
Much Love, GB